So I'm trying to settle into a new normal yet again. I was involved in a long distanced relationship for a year, then he relocated to be with me. God I love this man so much but our ethics are so different. I tried for six months and last week I asked him to leave. It hurt, it still hurts and it probably will always hurt. I've just went through too much in life and I know my worth. I now know how I should and want to be treated. So as much as I've cried and I miss him, I actually feel better. I can't tell him that though, because he wouldn't understand. He also didn't know how to cope with me when my grief waves came and went. At one time he told me to let my son rest in peace and move on. Excuse my french but I wanted to tear him a new *** for that one. I deal with my grief in a very healthy way, the way I have too. Plus as all of you know this time of year sucks for loss parents. Seeing the whole family together and knowing that yours is missing is so hard this time of year. His absence has let me focus back on my March of Dimes Team and this past weekend we had our first fundraiser at our local Celebration of Lights. We had a bake sale, and we did about $150 not bad out the starting gate. I've been thinking about having a chili cook off in my city as a fundraiser, we'll see though.
Good for you for putting yourself and your own well-being first. You can't change who a person is fundamentally and if you know that this man, even though you loved him, wasn't right for you, you did the absolutely best thing for both of you by asking him to leave.
His inability to understand your grief just shows that he isn't right for you.
Congratulations on the success of your bake sale. You're doing amazing things.
Wishing you the very best,
As sad as it is to hear that you have endured yet another loss, I am glad that you have realized your worth and have decided to put your value ahead of anything else. I can't imagine how difficult it is to find a partner who has not experienced the level of profound loss that we have experienced and trying to make them understand our lifelong grief and how the death of our child is not something that we simply move on from or get over. I am glad you are back on top with Team Zacc. I'm really hoping to see you put a pie in Aimee's face this year. lol. (Shhh....don't tell her I said that) Ha ha.
Your love and compassion has been sorely missed on Share. I hope you can find some time for your Share family again. We miss you!!!
Nesha, it is so good to read a post from you! I am sorry that you've had to endure disappointment, but YOU deserve only the best:) It is going to be the year of Nesha:) I love the refocus on your MOD fundraising team. Way to go Team Zacc! It's with these gestures that help raise money for such a wonderful organization, but we sort of heal our hearts a little at the same time. The chili sounds yummy especially in these colder months. Baked goods around the holiday season are always a hit too:) Stay focused on you, your closest circle, and take good care.
Love and hugs,
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