Back on Halloween, Riley sent me a text of a Prematurity Picture Challenge and asked me to do it. I read through the list of pictures and told her that I wasn’t sure I had all of them. The next morning she texted me again, “Day 1, please.” She asked me to challenge my friends and I told her that it was such a personal challenge that I wasn’t sure I was up to challenging others. But, I sent a text to my share moms and we agreed we would all do it together. The first couple of days were pretty easy until I got to baby’s first picture. I am able to look at Riley’s picture rather clinically nowadays. The folds of skin on her legs, the horrible color, the scrunched up face and all the tubes but my girlfriends and their kids, those pictures broke my heart. Those pictures are newer to me. The splayed limbs, the tiny bodies, the retracted chests and fully visible ribcages…not to mention the bruises, the coloring, the lack of of spirit that these kids have now…literally hurt me to look at them. A few days later, the tiny hands pic came up. This is a picture I’ve looked at a hundred times and I cried. Granted, it was 5:45 in the morning and I was getting ready to leave for work but yeah, that picture got me. We still have most of the month left to go and I’m not sure what each day will bring, but bring it on I, guess.
You're right - we are used to looking at our own kid's pictures, but seeing those of our friends, those children we know now, it's painful. Although those little hands and little feet, and the tubes picture, of my Ryley about did me in. It sucks, all that prematurity stole from us. These photos are stark reminders, but at the same time, it's healing and hopeful to face the challenge each day. Love you my friend!
~ D ~
You said exactly what I struggled to articulate when you posted Riley's first picture. I'm not always emotional when I look at my girls pictures after seeing them so many times. But to see Riley and all the other SYS babies who were born so early breaks my heart. It's so hard to reconcile those fragile babies with the amazing kids I have been blessed with watching grow and thrive.
I guess we channel that pain into action and keep fighting for that cure we all want for every mom and baby.
Love you lots!
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