Well its been 28yrs since Sean passed its gone so quick. It doesn't feel like it was that many years ago but I don't hurt as much now but it still gives me that uneasy and sad feeling.
I still have those what ifs especially when this time of year comes along Christmas and all that (sigh)
Still have that uneasy feeling that I missed out and it is because I did and have.
I don't believe in God and all that I guess its because he took 2 of my children and I got really angry and cant forgive but even so I thought just in case I had them both Christened before they passed Don't know why just did.
I know as time has passed on the pain of losing them both doesn't hurt as much now Its now just disappointment that it all didn't go to plan when I was trying to start a family.
I never gave up though I was still going to have a family so I keep trying and yes I am one of the lucky ones really, later on I was lucky to have 2 beautiful girls One of them was a premmie she's now 23 my youngest is 20 so I am lucky really
But its still hard but I continue to live my life to the fullest with both of my angel quietly tucked in my heart I like to know that they know there is always a place in my heart for them both.
For all of those parents out there with angel children and finding it hard I want to tell you it does get easier as time goes by Ive been there and are still there but don't give up hope, dont let this destroy everything you have around you.
You never know what the future will bring we cant predict what happens most likely it will be good even though you don't think so at this time
but if you need help or someone to talk too don't be ashamed Ask for it.
PS I so suck at trying to explain myself in words but I think you get what Im aiming for
Post on Share it helps really it does Venting never hurt anyone it keep you sane. I come on here often always read the posts
Thank you for being here and letting others who have newer losses know that they can and will survive this stage and go on in life. So sorry, once again for the loss of your boys.
Love and hugs
Thank you for sharing you story with us. I'm sorry for you loss. I lost my daughter 10 years ago and I still miss her and think of her daily. I don't think that pain ever goes away. Many hugs to you.
You are so right that posting on Share and venting really helps!
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