I am loosing it you guys. I am past baby blues and post partum and I am just plain done.
I feel so wrong.
I feel like a walking zombie. I don't understand why I am expected to jump back into life like everything Is ok.
EVERYTHING IS NOT OK. My baby is in the nicu.
I am trying to juggle working, going to see my sweet baby, coming home and cooking and hoping to get some sleep before I do it all over again.
I cant do I anymore. And when I mention it to my husband he says we cant survive without my income and I have to stay at work.
I LOVED WORK. I LOVED MY JOB. Now its my jail until I get to go home. I don't know what to do anymore. I feel stuck in this life that feels wrong for me. I am such an energetic person and I feel like my life was taken from me.