25 weeks early

My daughter came into this world on July 16th weighing 1 pound and 87 ozs (25 weeks early). Nothing was wrong with either one of us, but she was ready to come out. I was scared when the doctors told me that she would be coming out this early and she will be premature. I wanted to cry so bad but I had to be strong for her and my boyfriend. I saw her for the first time and I just wanted to break down seeing tubes, cords, hearing beeping noises and everything else. I knew they had to transfer her to the best hospital in Chicago so they would be able to care for her. It was hard not even able to take her home after being discharged. I fell in love all over again with just seeing this tiny person who is my daughter. 

They transferred her to the other hospital and let me tell you, it is so hard going into the NICU seeing my child like that. Not able to hold her and keep her close is tearing me apart. I was able to talk to her and she looked at me like mommy I know its you. She is a fighter and even though it has only been a few days so far, she is improving and I hope it stays like that. 

I just want her to be home with us. I can't stop crying and thinking about her. I know she can get through it. 

I just don't want to go into depression. I'm just scared. 

I need advice on how to coup with this!!!

I appreciate it. 

3 Replies

  • Best thing you can do is pump. So many good benefits and it makes mom feel like you are contributing to her health even when you are away from her. Keep strong dedicate time for proper sleep
  • In reply to Hunter and Randi's Mom:

    Hi, I can totally understand the pain and trauma you are suffering. I too was there for 25 days and it's really hard to see your baby in attachments. But you guys Will come out of it as soon as they discharged your baby. I too was scared to fall in depression. But as soon as I took my baby home , he kept me so busy that I came out of those negative feelings. So I hope u too. But the scars of NICU still haunts me. I still cry or get frustrated thinking about those days. I was in your situation 4 months back. It's okay to cry and get worried. But you will be fine. Trust that bundle of joy she will help you come out of it. Drink lots of fluids and healthy food even though I know u don't feel like. Don't feel lonely. U r not alone.we are there for you. Keep posting whatever comes in your mind. I am here for you anytime
  • Hi. Just catching up on your post. I hope your daughter is doing okay in the NICU. My son was a 26 weeker. It is so stressful to have a baby in the NICU. We are here for you if you have questions or just need to vent. I will be keeping you in my thoughts.