Welcome to Share Maddison and congratulations on the birth of your son! You're family has been through a lot and so much happened all at once. Urgh, it's so scary, overwhelming, confusing, frustrating, and wonderful all at once! I am so glad to read that both you and baby are doing well. I know how hard it is to have a baby in the NICU. My first son was a 32-weeker and spent a few weeks there. Let me tell you, a lot of what you are feeling is normal. I became hypersensitive very quickly. You feel like you're going nutz because all of your emotions and hormones are on overload. Your little one came early, the recovery from surgery is painful, he's in the NICU, and you and hubby must be feeling pulled in so many directions. I can so relate to what you described. Having a baby early, surgery, and NICU experience is a form of trauma. You're processing and it's A LOT to take in. Of course, if these feelings increase, do tell your doctor. If you aren't sleeping great, that can heighten things too and there's no shame in asking for a Rx. Know that your baby is receiving great care and that any amount of milk you can provide is super awesome! Hearing his mommy's voice is helping him grow too:) I hope being closer to him and visiting longer might help. For me, I felt better when I felt more included in my son's care during my visits. I hope some of this brings you comfort. We're here to listen and support you.