Any advice?

My baby boy Kiros was born at 31 weeks; a tiny baby. My water broke on a Tuesday and o didn’t go into labour until Friday morning. He is currently in the NICU and he’s seems to be getting better everyday but I can’t help but compare his progress to those of the other babies around him. I also feel alone in this process as he’s the first baby in my family to have to spend time in the NICU and nobody understands how I feel or the concerns I have. I can’t help but feel alone in this process and I try not to project that onto my baby but I’m having a really hard time especially when I feel like everything I’m going through is my fault.