I know how hard it is especially on an Angel-versy to deal with the loss of your son. The fresh and raw feeling still comes back sometimes even though I am almost 16 years out. Small things can still make me sob at the strangest of times. Grief is a life long process. You grieve for Caleb and you grieve for the loss of your womb.
Caleb is dancing with Jesus. Your sweet boy would want to see his mommy happy.
Don't give up on the idea of adoption, give the Savior a chance to give you a miracle in a different way. God kept you here with a strong desire to be a mother. Caring for a child of your heart rather than your body would be a wonder way to keep Caleb's memory alive. A sibling to carry his story through life.
I wish I could reach through this screen and give you a great big hug. Keep living life to the fullest.