My baby Ellen was born on March 14th, 2018 at 7:41 pm at 27 weeks and 4 days gestation. My pregnancy seemed to go well, no health issues except I had bleeding twice at 15 weeks and 19 weeks and both times my OBGYN and ER doctors could not determine the cause. The day my daughter was born I have seen my OBGYN for my regular appointment and I already had some abdominal pain which I've mentioned him about. His response was no worries, it is just your uterus that is expanding that was 10 am. At 4 pm I made it to the hospital with contractions and 4 cm dilated. They have put me on IV and gave me a steroid shot for baby's lungs. Not sure why they did not try to stop the contractions, but they induced me and my daughter was born at 7:41 PM after pushing for 8 times. She was born 2lb 6oz and 15in long. There was no NICU doctor when she was born just nurse practitioners, baby's NICU nurse, and RT. After she was born we didn't see her for a few hours, then the nurse practitioner came and told us we can do and see her. She said she is doing well, she doesn't have any heart issues, her blood pressure is normal and her breathing is fine. We were kind of relieved. 2 days while she was at NICU everything seemed to be fine, and doctor and nurses were telling us that her body is responding well on all the meds and her breathing seemed to be getting better day by day. On 3/17/2018 when we visited her at NICU doctor said he had to talk to us and my heart dropped. He told us that she had grade 4 brain bleed and 3/4 of her brain was in the blood, she had anemia, and she also had a heart problem. He told us if we want to continue her care or take her off life support. I am trying to understand how can everything go well and suddenly everything is wrong. They didn't give us any hope, they have told us even if makes it out of the blood transfusion, she will not talk, walk and will have all kinds of disabilities. We made the most difficult decision and took her off life support and she passed away peacefully on 3/18/2018 at 1:37 am. I am afraid we made a horrible decision, I feel like we didn't give her a chance to fight for her life. I buried my child yesterday and I don't know how am I going to live my life again.