I am so sorry to read about the loss of your baby girl. I know how it still must feel so raw. I am wondering if your doctor might be able to write you a note for postpartum depression? Would that help in giving you more time before going back to work (if financial need)? I don't think many of us knew exactly what the next step would be either, so please don't worry about not having a road map for this journey. I think there's that outside pressure too from whomever to get back to a job and "normalcy," but those people/family don't understand that every aspect has changed. I took two years away from what I knew, teaching, and did some daycare. Looking back, I don't really know how I did that, but I had this extreme urge to hold a baby and to care for little ones. I was still very quick to tear up and I knew that I couldn't handle being in front of teenagers. I also didn't have any interest in leaving my home, so being able to stay in one place in comfy pants, and be that hero to another family sounded good. Eventually, I missed my old job and went back part-time at a different school site. Months had passed and it was nice to be among work colleagues again. You just have to find what feels right and know that it doesn't have to be the next career. This can be the time to try something totally different. Give yourself time to make that choice if you can. If you venture into anything, you definitely want/hope it to be a positive experience.
Sending hugs and strength,