I don't know either. On Tuesday 10/23 I had back pain at work and as I was 30 weeks I thought it was normal. My sister told me about how she took yoga, and baths and my medical provider had said the same thing the week before. I read an email that day about false labor an auto-send for 30 week pregnant folks- so there I was at work thinking I was weak for telling my staff I was going to spend the afternoon working from home.
If only I went to the hospital right then. I should have known. I spent the next few hours taking panicked baths and doing cat and cow waiting for my husband. He came home and also chalked it up to back pain, bought me a heating pad and positioned pillows to make me more comfortable.
I finally insisted we go and by the time we made it to the hospital I was fully dialated and because we thought it was just back pain I went to a hospital without a proper NICU. They broke my water because her head was right there and they didn't believe I would make the transport. I delivered her and she cried and breathed and they got her intubated- the doctors and nurses commented on how now everything was fine, she was going to be okay and we were out of the woods- and we would just be transported to the other hospital.
The transport team lost her intubation tube because they didn't like the position and after they removed it- they couldn't get it back so my daughter suffocated after 2 hours of life. I never held her alive, just warm and dead and blue.
I'm dying. This happens in 3rd world countries- not to me. Not to professionals what the f*ck. My poor daughter.
And I want to try again as soon as possible- I must be terrible.