Miscarriage & Infertility Have Changed Me

My husband and I have went through 3 IUI's, 1 IVF and 1 FET.  We have our 4 yr old son via IVF.  We were on cloud 9 when we got the news we were pregnant again via FET.  Every blood test and 3 ultrasounds were all normal and then at 13w2d at a normal appt there was no heart beat.  Quinn Reid stopped growing at 11w6d (missed miscarriage). I am 36.  My part of this embryo was from egg retrieval at 31.  I am devastated.  It is hard to remain hopeful.  We have no idea why this happened.  It has been 7 weeks since my D&C.  This is the hardest thing that has happened to us and I am lost and not myself.  I am going through the motions of life, but my heart isn't in it.  Perhaps someone who has needed infertility treatments and has been 36 or older could post stories of hope.  Or maybe you ladies could share advice on how I can help myself.  I have considered therapy.  Some days are better than others.  I feel like I cannot lead a happy life since this happened.  

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