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I had a dream that I was in my restroom with my husband and one of his cousin taking two pregnancy tests and they both came out positive. So I woke up didn’t think much of it. I got off work and heading to the dollar tree to get some stuff and I was walking passed the pregnancy test and something in me told me take one, so I did. Went home took the test thinking that it was going to be negative just like always. Looked at it after 5 minutes and I saw one line then a faint line. I went to target to get more tests. I got four more tests just to make sure and sure enough all were positive.. I felt like I was on top of the world.this was my first pregnancy. I told my husband and some family. Went to the doctor the next day doctor told me I was about 6 weeks I got an vaginal ultrasound everything was looking good I was going every week for three weeks to the doctor to see the progress for the baby. Then I got covid couldn’t go to work or be seen by a doctor. I had been in quarantine for about a week when the worst experience of my life took place. I was cleaning myself after using the restroom and some brownish redish substance was on the toilet paper. So I called my doctor  and she said that it’s normal because my body is going through some changes. So I was like ok it’s normal. But the following morning I was cramping very bad I went to the restroom and when I wiped myself all I saw was blood on the toilet paper. I told my husband to take me to the hospital I didn’t care if I had covid they had to help me. I was outside in a tent being seem by a doctor experiencing the worst pain in my life. I had to get Norco to clam the pain. They took me in to get an vaginal ultrasound and oh my God was that painful I wanted to scream to the top of my lungs. But I would just bit my lip and cry.. then when I went to the restroom after the ultrasound i heard a splash in the water and I knew it was my baby I was 10 weeks at this point. I had to wait for 2 hrs by myself in pain because the hospital couldn’t let my husband in. Then the doctor came out and told me that I was having a miscarriage. And I told him I know it happened in the restroom I little while ago. I was discharged my husband was waiting for me in the car I didn’t say anything on our way home I was just holding his hand. But when I got home I yelled and cried like there was not tomorrow. I let it all out while my husband was holding me tightly. I’m still in pain right now it just happened 6 days ago on January 19, 2022 this day will forever be in my heart. I know my baby is safe in heaven with my mom. My husband wants to try again. And I do to but I’m afraid, I’m afraid of it happening again. I don’t want to go through that pain again physically and emotionally. But only God knows what the future holds for us.