Struggling mom looking for a place and was working extremely hard for myself and my son. To get my life together after some tragedies. I was dating and had no intention on getting pregnant. Unfortunately I did. But this pregnancy took a toll on my life. The guy turned out to be a monster to me during my pregnancy and my job turned into a very stressful environment. I wound up in the hospital many times. I endured things I never thought possible. I never got the chance to mourn I became angry . Angry with life with the pain the suffering the Struggling alone. The missing time with my boy and my health. My job was very demanding I would go to the emergency room and then have to be at work the next day. I had the man who got me pregnant belittle me. I worked really hard and felt unappreciated. I had missed some days due to getting sick. Recently after loosing every thing except myself my boy . I got even more upset just with the situation I experienced. My supervisor I told her I was not well my sons grandma told her. She used the same line on me. We need someone reliable . After neglecting my life my broken ankle working hard not taking breaks at work not loving myself like I always did . She via text me not to return after I took on the responsibility of other employees I was in shock. I just endured trauma mentally physically emotionally and financially. Ladies love yourselves appreciate the beautiful children you have and when you are in pain follow your heart. I put myself last for a job that I desperately needed when in the end all the good I did. My manager was quick to let me go after promises n promises she never fulfilled. The man I thought loved me did not he left me to suffer the pain alone. I could not tell my son what was going on hes too young . His dad became mean as well. This is a very traumatic experience I even said to my boss I never had time to grieve. I wanted to numb myself from anymore pain. But that doesn't help. I don't know what to do now except not give up and continue trying because I do have a child . But the help I need I have to fight for. I have a broken ankle from an apartment that tormented my son and me. I can't wear heels. That landlord is continuing his life while we suffer the pain. The misscarriage is on my shoulder. All those other people are still at work while I struggle. My son is with his dad till June till I get it together and the man that supposedly loved me threw me on the street while I was pregnant wished horror for my life. Lives like nothing happened. Not one visit while I was in the hospital not one. Whenever I missed a day of work in pain hemorrhaging I was just told bring a note we need you here Monday. How long does suffering and pain go on. Why did this happen. Why am I sad angry and how long till I am me. When do others stop dictating my life and controlling me and my son. When do they get thier karma. I am only 39 I don't know if I'll ever be able to give my son a sibling from what I went through. Being a mom is hard. A child is a blessing. May the ones I lost rest. May the angels guard all my kids and me.