Today I find myself thinking, just thinking of my baby. Not in a sad way though. Just thinking of how she would have been like, if she would be smiling alot, if she knew how to laugh as yet and how it sounded. Granted, she would have only been 3 weeks and 1 day but I intended to cherish every waking moment of her life from the day that I give birth. I love my little girl and nothing can take that away from her. Sigh, I'm so sorry that she was taken away from us so early. Sometimes I wonder if we wanted her too much. I know it doesn't really make any sense but you know the feeling when you wanna have something go your way so badly and it just goes the opposite? It feels like one of those moments and it is painful. I mean, it's not like I was looking to go to a concert but the weather won't permit it. Its much different, its a life that was taken from you, literally as a loss like this also strips the known version of you from yourself. I pray that no one ever else becomes familiar with this pain. Hopeful, I know. I'm still trying to find ways to cope with this new pain. I also pray that it doesn't break me, unless it allows a new, stronger version of myself to rise between those cracks and flourish into a better wholesome individual. I hope God is taking good care of my Baby Skye until I get there to do the job I was destined to do, be her mom.
I’m so sorry for your loss. This is a pain that feels so heavy and ever present, and I wish you didn’t have to feel it.