It’s taken me a while to put my feelings in writing . I had a healthy pregnancy asides from gestational diabetes which i managed properly with my diet and metformim;( think that’s how it’s spelt). Anyway I have a beautiful 4 year old daughter whom I had July 2016. The induction of her birth went smoothly. Fast forward to July 24 2020 I had an induction booked. Started at 6.40 am. Between 2 and 4 pm can’t remember the exact time, my baby got into distress and was delivered with forceps around 4 pm. He came out not breathing with the cord once around his neck and having seizures. I just remember them whisking my baby out of the room. The next few hours, days and month were like a trance. I woke up a few hours later to be told my baby was in intensive care and to hope for the best. How could joy just turn into a nightmare in the space of a few hours. My son had been severely asphyxiated and would fight for his life for 4 weeks. He passed away on the 24th of August. I am taking each day as it comes and healing but boy it’s painful. He was just soooo beautiful and miss what I never had.
Dear momma, I am so sorry to hear about the loss of your precious son. What a traumatic experience and incredible sense of loss you feel every day. I lost my daughter on Dec 21st last year and I hear you when you say each day brings both healing and pain. Sending you hugs.