my baby.

I miss you.

  • I lost my baby girl at 34 weeks and 5 days. The cord was around her neck and unfortunately on her ultrasound she had no heartbeat. I delivered her the next day at the hospital. Hard to say birthday when in fact she had died. I feel like people forget my Amelia too even though she is ever present in my mind. What ive learned is that most people just choose not to talk about it because they arent sure what to say- not that they forgot or are trying to be mean. Talk about your baby. Talk about her often. Say her name out loud. You will never forget your baby and she will always be yours. I know the pain of missing your child. I wish it was a club none of us belonged to but I promise you, it will get a little easier day by day. The pain will never be gone, youll always have a hole in your heart the size and shape of her but you will be able to breathe without tears. Its been a little more than 3 months since my Amelia passed and in the beginning there wasnt a waking moment when I didnt cry, its slowly gotten a little easier each day to face. Talk to her. Remember her. And if you need support- reach out. Im sending all my love to you. Dig deep and find strength you didnt know you had- I promise its there.

  • Grieving mom, I am so sorry to hear about your loss. I am sending you hugs in your brokenness and I hope you know it is ok to not be ok. I lost my daughter at 22 weeks and I felt what you did about people moving on with their lives and forgetting about my precious daughter that I left behind and who left a gaping hole in my heart. Please know that the other moms who’ve experienced loss hear and see you and share your sadness. Most people who haven’t experienced losing a child don’t understand us—even if that’s who surrounds you, know that you are not alone.