Hi all! My name is Dee, I am a 24 yo first time mom. I had my daughter at 29weeks & 3 days. She came into this world perfectly healthy, and at 6days of life she contracted sepsis ecoli meningitis. It has been a very emotional roller coaster, the drs told me she has clots in her brain, and sites of Puss with infection. They asked me to take her off the vent September 17th. I was broken, and my heart shattered, I just didn’t wanna live anymore. I didn’t take her off, because I want to give her a fair chance to fight. It’s been hard seeing her not move, or do much but she is fighting. They told me she wouldn’t breath on her own, but she gave a few breaths on the vent this Thursday & Friday. I was very proud, I try to celebrate and hold on to the little things. I just want my little girl Winter’Rose to make it through this, there’s so much I want to do with her, and so much I want her to do & see in this lifetime. It seems like everyone lost hope, but as long as she’s still fighting I’m in the fight with her. I feel bad sometimes bc I feel like I’m making her suffer but I just want her to get through this, I want us both to be on the other side of this. Has any moms every experienced this and made it through?