If you listened to My Miracle Baby Podcast and heard episode 1 I talked about my first bleed or the medical term “sub-chronic hematoma”. From the time I was 7 weeks pregnant my bleeding continued and off…. It was almost like I was on my period but not because I didn’t know exactly when I would start bleeding. As I look back now my bleeding seemed to have been triggered by stressed and because I had an arcuate uterus stressed didn’t help during my pregnancy.
I had my second bleed at exactly 11 weeks. I remember it was a Sunday when I had my biggest bleed. My lower back was hurting, and I had horrible stomach cramps. When I used the bathroom, I would gush out thick, chunks of blood. Because of my history of bleeding my Doctor had already informed us that if I did bleed again there was nothing they could do to save the baby. I remember laying in bed at night crying so much, and feeling depressed because I was 99% sure I was losing my baby based on the symptoms I was having. I started thinking about so many things…. like maybe it wasn’t meant to be. Or because I didn’t feel like I was 100% ready I didn’t deserve to have a baby right now. I started to prepare myself to think of all the positive things that I could do if I wasn’t pregnant. But as well as the negative things. Each time I tried to think of a positive reason to not be pregnant I kept crying thinking about how much I did want to be pregnant and that I didn’t want to lose my baby.
Deep down God knew I wanted my baby to stay and that’s what planned for. It was Monday and it was time for an ultrasound to confirm my pregnancy. I remember buying some McDonalds and drinking so much orange juice while I patiently waited in the waiting room. We were finally called into our room, I was so scared and was ready for the worse. Our Doctor came in to prep me for the ultrasound. Believe it or not our baby was swimming around in the ultrasound it was so cute because he was waving his arms up and down almost like he was dancing. I think it was from all the orange juice I was drinking. Anyhow, I burst into tears as soon as I saw Bryson was alive! That’s when I knew he was truly My Miracle Baby!
Barry and I were so happy and excited although we still questioned my episodes of bleeding, my doctor really had no explanation… each time I had a bleed I had to come in to get checked and each time Bryson was doing so well!
Until I got a call from our Doctor’s office stating that my second blood test came back abnormal and that I should come in to the high-risk facility Hospital to confirm if our baby had abnormalities to his chromosome such as down syndrome. Stay tuned for my upcoming episodes where I’ll go into more details of that emotional rollercoaster experience.
I do want to thank you all for tuning into My Miracle Baby Podcast, I hoped this has brought some awareness and hope to some people’s lives. You can write a review on itunes or message me on the anchor app on suggestions on what you want to hear more of. It will make me really happy to hear your thoughts.
So before I end this blog, I want to leave you guys with a quote, the quote is “I focus on what I can control and let go of what I can’t.” stay tuned to learn something new and know that you’re never alone.
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