Dear Shanaya,
i got up as usual with a thought of u over my mind..was thinking had u been with me i would have tugged u tightly in warm blanket and hugged u over million times..i loved to roll my hand over ur small tummy and loved to see ur cute reactions..i had been so peaceful,so excited each day waking up to u and ur didi..life had been so bful..now i sleep tight and warm with ur didi who tries to take utmost care of me..who keeps checks on my mood swings and always tries to keep me cheerful..i m trying to be same momma for her but sometimes i fail...i regret not being able to give her enough that she deserves..i miss u in between...and i feel upset for u not being with us..ur daddy came home over weekend and he tries to console me that whatever has happened it is past..we have to look forward to life we have and we have to look after ur didi as she always looks upon to us...he explains how i have to come out of this and learn to smile again for him and ur didi..i understand everything but in between when again my thoughts go back to u i fall apart..i cry, i feel as if everything is incomplete...but i do understand i still have family to look after..i have to get and keep going..and they say universe conspires to bring back the love lost so i shall too wait for sucj miracle to happen in my life..u shall never be forgotten my lil Miss Shanaya till ur momma is here on this earth..one day we shall meet again
love
momma