I love our work we do for the MOD and feel like we are honoring Scott and his time with us when we do it. On Sunday my chapter had it's family team kickoff and they handed out awards to the top 10 family teams. Team popcorn ranked in the top 5 last year so we got a plaque. I was proud of us for getting it but at the same time hated it. It's so bittersweet because I wish that I wasn't sitting in that restaurant accepting it yet also proud because we have turned such a tragic event into something positive in Scott's memory. I sat on the ride home with it in my lap and just retreated into to myself. Those moments I just need to shut the world out and process things. I got home ate a bowl of ice cream and just watched tv. Afterwards I was able to share our accomplish with everyone just needed that time to be bummed out, and sad first.
I feel the same way each walk day ... proud to be doing as much as I can in memory of my sons, but sick that I have to be raising money in my sons' memory. It is, indeed, bittersweet.
Hugs to you.
erin
I feel the same way on walk day. I get really excited to fundraise, feel proud and strong for doing something in my son's memory and to honor my living preemies. On the morning of walk day, I brainstorm excuses to get out of participating in my head. Why? Probably because it's a reminder of the pain that I'm feeling all the time. It's that part of acceptance that I don't want to accept. It's such an emotional day. The kick-offs are the same. I can picture you clutching that plaque in your lap on the ride home. I wish things could be so different. I'm sorry that you had to create a Team Popcorn. It's such a cute nickname you picked out for Scott. Team Popcorn is doing so much good for so many others:)
Keep on poppin',
Lindsay
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That is so great your team was in the top five and got a plague. That is inspiring that you are making such a difference in Scott's honor! I understand what you mean about it being bittersweet.