The one thing I still struggle with on a daily basis is my anxiety. Especially when it comes to C. I have adjusted well to him going off to school every morning on a bus and being at school all day. Well...tomorrow he has a fieldtrip. I was not selected in the lottery they had to choose chaperones. C is going on a bus with over a 100 other students to a farm that is about 30 minutes away. He will be away from school. Me, nor his dad, nor any family member will be with him It makes me anxious. I know he is in good hands and his teacher is excellent but it's that thought that he is venturing farther from my protective bubble. It's hard to let go, it's hard to let him go off to do things.
I have recently become friends with another mom from C's class. Her son has epilepsy. She was chosen to go on the trip. I decided to take a shot and message her asking her if she would take pics for me and simply told her how hard it was for me. I had a feeling she would understand. She did. She even gave me her cell phone number so if I need to check in I can. That one thing has made my anxiety level go down greatly. I feel like now I have a way to be in touch with C if needed. All I needed was that. I won't call or text her. But it's nice knowing I can if I need too.
I hate how fast he is growing up. Wish I could keep him little forever and in my loving arms.
Letting our kids venture into the unknown is very nerve-wracking, and I can understand how you feel not being able to accompany C on this field trip. I think being an angel mom amplifies the anxiety.
I'm happy to hear that you connected with another mom who is so understanding. Many hugs to you.
erin
I completely get this. Abbey started field trips with daycare/summer camp last summer, and that oddly enough didn't bother me. What still does make me anxious is that now in 1st grade she rides the bus home. I was terrified the first day, and I cried when I watched her exit the bus and cross the street all on her own. I am probably the only mom who has called the bus depot at least 3 times when the bus was late....they started calling me first to warn me when the routes were doubled up and would cause a delay. Yep. I'm that parent, and proud of it! I'm happy you have a mom-friend who understands, it makes a world of difference
Hugs
Brandi