When C started School last year I got a part time job. I knew that I couldn't sit at home and think about the fact I should be home with Scott. So I went to work for our local Recreation and parks in their preschool programs. My class that I co-teach is for 3 years 9 months to 4 years 9 months twice a week. I knew the day would come that I would have kids that would be born in 2012 and would be the same age as Scott would have been. Well that day came this week with our new session that just started. I was writing their birthdays on our birthday chart and there is a little girl who had a birthday in June 2012. Once glance it was like a sucker punch to the gut. I immediatly had all sorts of unreasonable thoughts and the unfair thoughts. I thought how Scott should have been sitting a table playing with playdough excited about show and tell. I left there and just wanted to drive to C school and give him a hug. Instead I went to my parents house and visited my dad who just had knee surgery and then went to the gym. As my husband pointed out that night after this session it will never happen again. Just more reminders in life of what should have been.
So sorry for the unwanted reminders Nikki. This happens to me a lot when I'm at Abbey's school and the other room moms visit their older kids in other classrooms, or have them come and help out.
Love and Hugs
These reminders sneak up and sucker punch you, don't they? I'm so sorry you had to endure this one. I'm glad you had coping mechanisms in place to help you through it but just wish you didn't have to figure out how to endure.
So much love to you,
Hugs momma! When I hear the same dates. ages, or months as my angel, I just can't help but stare. It's weird. This happened last week at a testing site I took my older son to. There was a boy there who was in 1st grade. My mind just started to go there. Those moments are so hard. Glad you were able to visit with your Dad and use the gym as an outlet.
No words.... just big hugs. I'm so sorry this is a part of your story.
I"m so sorry. It isn't fair.
Sending you hugs and love,
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