I did something today that I did not think I would do or ever really do but the it felt right so I did it. I work part time for our local Recreation and Parks teaching their preschool programs. Today we had a meeting for the start of the year. We were all sitting around a large conference table and had to introduce ourselves, say where we worked and if we had kids. So everyone was going around the room and saying how many kids they had and their ages. I told myself I was going to share I had two boys. My turn came up I said I was Nicole, where I worked,, and then said I have two boys I have a 6 year old, and my little angel would have been 3. I finished what else I needed to say and then the next person went up. It felt good, my heart was racing but it felt good. I have been wrestling with that question and being in situations like that. But I realized something today it is not my job to make other people feel better about my son being dead. If they want to feel uncomfortable about it, if they want to think that I am trying to make people feel sorry for me or whatever it is they want to think it's their problem not mine. The fact of the matter is I have 2 boys and I 'm not going to hide that anymore.
YES! I'm so proud of you Nicole! Those heart racing moments are so tough. You did GREAT!
Hugs,
Lindsay
Many many hugs to you.
Bravo, Nicki, bravo! I can't imagine how scary that may have been. I'm super proud of you.
Much love!
Way to go. It is your story you choose when, where, and how much of your story you share. I am glad you are at a place where you feel comfortable to share!
Samantha
Awww, that is so great! I constantly battle with that question. Heart racing and all, that must have felt like a huge victory! That is great that you felt ready to tackle that question with what felt right in your heart!
So proud of you. I can't imagine that feeling but I think your absolutely right in saying "if they feel uncomfortable, or that you're looking for pity" is their problem. You do have 2 sons, and they both matter and you deserve to share them with the world.
I am so proud of you for facing your fear. You did great!
Love and hugs,
Jessica