We went to the zoo with friends the other day and children were just fascinated with watching the playful monkeys. ( I think they were baboons...) They were saying which ones would be who in their families. There was a baby one and when one of Colin's friends say that's me, his other friend said, " No! That would be Scott." I love how my close friends share Scott with their kids and how their kids just recognize Scott as part of our family, our group when we are out. If only adults could just be that way...It's moments like this that I don't even think my friends realize how happy it makes my heart.
We are gearing up for our walk, May 7! We have a fundraiser this weekend at a local paint place for a paint night. We are looking forward to it. My family and friends are quite shocked that Team Popcorn did not sell popcorn this year. Better make sure to do it next year! I did something that was very hard for me to do a few days ago and posted my story on facebook. What I was like during and after Scott died. It was my way of sharing with people why we chose to support the March of Dimes and why we fundraise and volunteer. I was having a bit of anxiety when I hit post thinking what the heck did I do. No one is going to read that long post. All I am going to get is the feel sorry for you comments, praying for you, when that wasn't the point of my post...well I was wrong. I was shocked at the response I got. We have a Team Popcorn facebook page that has many followers. The comments I got were uplifting. A few people shared my post and one person who shared it added to it this is why I support the MOD and why I will continue to support them.
My family just found out we are speaking at the walk. so that's something new for us but I will happily stand up there and share Scott. It's his day, his day of celebration. We got new shirts this year we changed the front pocket to read, We walk for Scott. I can't wait to get them. ( nothing like waiting till the last minute...)
I love this time of year but at the same time it can get overwhelming with our fundraising, and volunteering. When you add in homeschooling and everyday life like my very first root canal ( 39 is fun)...it's been a lot. I am earning my vacation at the end of May. But I will continue to do what I do every year to help babies and their families to honor my son. It's all I can do with the cards that we were dealt.
My mind is also starting to go to that place it goes this time every year of June is coming...How I look forward and dread it every year. All my boys birthdays that first week, then all the sad dates the next two weeks. I have learned that once June 19 has passed the fog will left till the next year. I am learning how to cope, learning to just keep things low key and just survive. Coping mechanisms...
Everything that you do to honor Scott is so amazing! It inspires me to do more for Sean. Wishing you a great March for Babies, that is great that you will be speaking at the event and sharing your story with everyone! I also think its's great that you shared your story on Facebook. I always fear about the same thing about sharing my story, that not many people will want to hear it. I am glad you had such a great response from it!
I'm not on FB, so I'm curious to know how your walk went this past weekend. I have to say, that it was super strange weather everywhere. We went from 108 F down to 77 F overnight?! I hope you got some great pics too:) I hope Team Popcorn had a nice day getting out there to walk and honor your Scott. Good to read that your sharing on FB was a good decision and that you received a warm response. I know this next month is also a very hard one for you with all of your guys' birthdays. Low key sounds like a nice plan. You do what you need to do and what feels right for you.
Sending love and hugs,
Lindsay