Living my new normal

Kindergarten is approaching fast...

  • It's hard enough to let your oldest child go to school, real school, for the first time but to add to that the fact that your younger child isn't here like he should be, and it's a recipe for tears and grief.  Please know that you're not crazy.  Everything you are feeling is so understandable.

    Colin is going to do great in kindergarten and you will figure out what you want and where you want to be.  I know that sounds simple and I know that it really isn't simple but things usually just work out. You'll either start volunteering at his school or something else will come up and whatever it is you'll be amazing because it's what you do.  :-)

    Thinking of you,


  • I know that it's hard. I have many of these same thoughts and feelings too. My angel would be starting Kinder this Fall if things had been different. I think you're doing such a great job holding it together:) Give yourself credit:) The picnic will be hard and the first day of Kinder too. Seeing C go off to make new friends, learning, and coming home to tell you all about his day will continue to make you proud. You will find that special something to help occupy some of your day. Maybe if being around other kiddos is too much, you could do some behind the scenes volunteering things like making copies or prepping materials. You can keep a low profile and even take things home to work on. You'll just know. It's also so okay to use this time for YOU. Believe me, there are many days where I say to myself, "Now what?"



  • Oh Nicki -

    I can see why this would be such a hard time for you.  Not only are you sending your son who you have spent your days with for the last 5 years to school....but you are grieving the loss of what you hoped this time would bring with it...more one on one time with Scott.  

    Be gentle on yourself.  Know that if you do cry in front of the other parents, that it's ok.  You are certainly not crazy...and I doubt they will think you are...and even if they did - well - that's on them!  

    I'm sure that the months ahead must seem really daunting to you....but you will get through day at a hour at a minute at a time.  One foot in front of the other - you will do it.  You will find your way.  

    Lots of love,


    p.s....I'm still trying to figure out what I want to be when I grow up too.... :)

  • You are most definitely not crazy! Kaelin finished with preschool this past week and will start kinder in August. Even though I was ready for preschool to be over (lots of running back and forth in between work) -- when it was over this week, I cried. Kaelin's been home with me after school four days a week for the last nine months and now she'll go the sitter in the summer. Goes way too fast.

    You are not crazy for feeling the way you do -- and thinking how it should have been. I think about that every day with my two sons who aren't here.

    I agree with Tommie -- you'll find volunteer activities with his kinder class and will able to be as involved as you want to be. I enjoyed volunteering with K's pre-K class and hope to do it with kinder as well.



  • I completely dread Keira's first day of Kindergarten. I even put off pre-K until the fall because I really didn't want to accept her going to school, so I can completely relate. Alexia is in K this year and I can tell you that there are a LOT of volunteer opportunities. So in my opinion you can wait one more year to decide what you want to be when you grow up. :)