As time goes on after Scott dying I am realizing more and more than I'm not sad and bursts into tears when I expect to like holidays etc it's the random times during your day or an activity were you happen to see, hear, smell something that just triggers tears.
We went to Disney World this past week and it was amazing. We did the whole experience where you show up at the airport and they take you right to your hotel, they get your bags for you we had the meal plan. So basically our job was just to have fun and we did! Animal Kingdom we were watching the Lion King show and I'm dancing and singing with Colin to it when they pulled some kids from the audience to march around with them while they sang the final number. So I'm watching the performers and kids march around when one of the performers goes marching past with her armed linked with a boy who looked to be in his late teens. It looked as if he had Down Syndrome. Seeing that and seeing that this boy was able to be included in this activity even with his special needs and that the performer chose him and linked arms with him made me burst into tears. I was close to a total meltdown. It was just so touching to see that he got to be included in something that he probably wouldn't usually get included with, seeing how this performer just linked her arms with him and proudly danced around the room with him. It also made me think that if Scott would have lived and knowing that if he would have he would have been special needs that he would have maybe been included too. It makes me teary eyed thinking about it. It's those random times where it hits you out of the blue. I am also realizing too that when it does hit you have to let it and let the tears fall for a few minutes it makes it easier to get on with your day. so I just threw on my sunglasses and let them fall and than was able to continue with my day.
Lots of hugs, prayers and kind thoughts. Let those tears fall as often as they need too.
Love ya,
Nesha
Ooooh so jealous of your trip to Disney! We loved our trip there and can't wait to go back! So sweet of that performer to include that boy! It's the things that take us off guard that are the hardest. I think often times we don't cry at the big days anymore because we go into them prepared for them to be hard. We're ready for it. But when things like this catch us out of the blue, we're not prepared and ready to deal with the onslaught of emotions so bring on the tears. Hollywood glasses are an awesome tool for a grieving mama, hugs!
Stacy
How wonderful that he was included so nicely. Very heart warming, and I could definitely see how that could trigger lots of emotions. And yes, it's good to just roll with it! Sunglasses definitely come in handy for that! I randomly had a meltdown when we took Lucia to Disney on Ice this fall...it was the beginning of the show and I was watching her face, and was overcome with emotion...I think it was just extreme gratefulness that I have this child to do this with. Anyway...sometimes the emotions just take over!
So glad you guys got to go to Disney...I bet it was magical!
Love,
Libby
I had several emotional moments at Disney when we were there over the summer. The staff there is incredible and very inclusive of all the children and even adults. I'm glad you enjoyed your visit.
Hugs,
Jami
Hugs Nicole. I think it is often those random but completely meaningful moments that bring the most emotion.