I went to Joann Fabrics today because I heard they had all their Christmas items 70% off (and yes they had Easter and Valentine's day out already)...I went there to find something C could put on Scott's grave when we visit this week. I found a little tree with some tinsel and ornaments he can put on it. Although I had found what I came for I ended up spending another 30 minutes just circling the store. I couldn't bring myself to check out because knowing what this was for just really sucked and I hated that this was what our holiday is like for us now. Buying Scott his own tree to put on his grave. I finally snapped myself out of it and made myself to get in line to checkout. When of course there had to be a newborn baby who was crying it's lil' head off. I am cool with babies. I will hold them, play with them but if one starts crying it unravels me. So here I am standing in line with my little tree for my son' s grave listening to a newborn scream it's head off. Sigh...I love and hate the holidays all at the same time.
Many hugs to you Nicki. Sending love from me and Charie.
Sending lots of love.
I agree about the crying babies, especially newborns. It reminds me too much of how Josie couldn't and didn't cry, and how much I wanted to hear her even though I knew I couldn't.
Love and Hugs
I hope your Christmas is a peaceful one. I'm so sorry about the screaming newborn. It never really goes away, does it?
So much love to you,
I am so sorry for these moments. Thinking of you and wishing you strength to get through another holiday season.
Just sending a big hug to you.
That is a sweet way to include Scott in the holiday. Hope all went well when you went to his grave. I agree, sometimes when I decide I am going to buy something for Sean, it takes me a while to make it to the checkout. Thinking of you!
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