Living my new normal

The mind can be your worst enemy

  • *sigh* I wish I could tell you that each year it will get easier but I am not sure if that is true. It has been five years for us and still each year around the beginning of October I start to feel down. On her Birthday I feel more calm like I am in the eye of the "storm" and then it is over until next year. I can remember everything like it happened yesterday.

    Sending you lots of hugs and thinking of you as Scott's Angelversary date approaches.


  • Sometime I think the day weeks leading up to Trinitys day are harder.  The anticipation of how I will handle, act, or meltdown consume my life.  I'm so sorry for this dream and the emotion that come along with dreams such as these.  Sending you a million and one hugs!  


  • Nicki -

    It is hard.  Every part of it is hard and unnatural.  There is nothing that anyone can say to take the pain away - but we can tell you that you are not alone and that we walk this journey with you.  



  • There is nothing that can mask the pain to losing a child. With time it will get easier but it will still hurt and its ok to cry. Its okay to mourn.  Its seems our dreams creep in to tell us its okay to feel. Its okay to feel weak. AND we will be here for you year after year to try and uplift you. I know this comment no doubt did the opposite but know your feeling normal and have such a strong will to push on. I dont know the pain of losing a child (I had one miscarriage at 24 weeks but hadnt met him/her) so I cant give you much advice just to say your in my prayers and sending you love and hugs