I woke up in one of those moods were I just want to "rain on someone's parade". I'm looking to pick a fight so instead I'm writing here because I know nothing good comes out of picking a fight with someone. I just get frustrated sometimes with everything my family has been through and than you hear read about other people who just seem to live these happy Oblivious lives and it just irks me! I have one friend who is doing a 100 days of happy where each day she finds something that makes her happy. It's a nice thing I should not find fault with it but I think what my past 100 days have been or my past two years...there were days I could not find happiness. This year so far I've done an emergency trip to florida for the inlaws, my mom was in rough shape int he hospital and got a new liver. Before that once again getting through the holidays knowing Scott wasn't there. I just want my family to get a break...just some time where we can just breathe.
I remember telling my brother when they were preparing my mom to go to surgery through my tears, " does our family get a break after this?" Can we just have a few "normal" months of happiness and good times.
One thing I can say is that all our life events has brought my family closer and we all have found that we stick together no matter what.
Nicki -
I'm glad you came here to "blog it out" - it's important to have a place where you can get your honest feelings out and know that you won't be judged. It's ok to lean into those feelings you're having.
You've been through a lot, and I do hope that your family gets a break here in the very near future.
Hugs,
Libby
Nicole,
I have definitely had these types of days myself. I am glad that you are pre-blogging before you pick a fight instead of after wards. If you are anything like me I am sure your husband appreciates it too. :)
Jami
Like Libby, I'm glad you came here to vent. That's why we're here. We get that some days if just feels like you've had enough, enough heartbreak, enough trauma, enough sadness. And then to feel like others are flaunting their 'perfect' lives at you. I get it. We all get it.
I hope your family gets that break soon. You've been through so much.
Much love,
Tommie
thanks everyone your comments and a trip to the park in the warmth and sunshine did the trick after I wrote my post. Yes Jami it also saved Mike from me...he tends to get the brunt of my pent up emotions if I don't do something with them.