I dropped C off at music class yesterday after school and was going to run an errand when my mind turned to what it is suppose to be. I suddenly starting thinking like Scott was in the backseat. That he would be with me and we would be running the errand together and making sure to get back in time to pick up C. I found myself almost speaking to him aloud saying, "Here we go me and you buddy while C is at music..." then reality came back and I just felt that emptiness and sadness of what is missing from my life.
Oh. I am so sorry. I too have those little moments, when I remember that I'm suppose to have two little girls instead of only one.
Love and Hugs
Brandi
I'm so sorry! Our minds can be brutal. :(
It's amazing how tough our minds can be, isn't it? Your mind it still fighting to accept that Scott is really gone. It's so very wrong that he's gone and your mind, your heart don't want to believe something so awful can possible be true.
So much love to you,
Tommie
I'm so sorry. I do wish that Scott was there with you and C. Thinking about you.
Cassie
I am so sorry! Oh those moments! I call them the glimpses of the "what could have been". I read somewhere that as a parents of an angel we never stop grieving, because we grieve each stage of life our angels could had, baby, toddler, etc. After 13 years I still have those glimpses. The other day I had to pull over to cry by myself, after realizing that I should be planning a teenager birthday party, and imagining all the details of it, and even her dress.
hugs
Lorena