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Hmm, no call yesterday about whether or not I got the job. That's a bit frustrating because when someone (a Prinicpal) says they'll call on a certain date, I kind of hold them to it. I am thinking perhaps I didn't get the job and now I've become an afterthought OR maybe they are still trying to contact some of my references. Who knows? I'm not holding my breath, but I'd like to know so that I can stop walking around the house with my cell phone in hand. My parents are out of town, so I went down to visit my grandmother who has been in assisted living since last September after suffering another stroke. She kind of laid into me a bit and really, I can't be too mad at her as she is an older person, but you know, it doesn't make me want to visit again anytime soon. I'm busting my butt to do what I can and I just don't really appreciate any scolding for things. She told me how horrible I was for not sending my mother a Mother's Day card. I haven't sent my mother a card for this particular holiday in years. I just have so many issues with her and I thought it was understood between us. I don't do anything forced. A card is such a lovely thought and I get that part, but it doesn't make things okay. My parents and I rarely spend any of the major holidays together anymore. My holidays have been dictated by my sister's in laws for the past 4 years. I'm tired of all of that. I do for me and for my own family and if that's selfish, then oh well. Losing my baby has taught me to do that in some ways. I mean, who matters most? I can't keep worrying about a not so great relationship with my mother. I'm going through so much and I stopped sharing with my mother last year. My mother TRIES to help, but she does more hurt than anything. How do you tell someone that gently? We just don't see eye to eye. She's forever critical and I never get the reaction I'm looking for. There was a thing awhile back on TV about Mothers and Daughters and the reasons behind certain actions. I taped it! I found it fascinating and so completely true as far as my situation is concerned. I think that's why I was so relieved to have boys because of the drama between my mom and I. Because I am so aware of the feelings that I have toward my own mother, I am very careful with how I parent my boys. First off, I have boys, so it is a little different. I try not to get too upset at the things she says, so I keep them to myself and vent to my husband later. I'm sure he's sick of hearing it. When I shared with my mother that I had a job interview, she was so happy that I had "finally decided to rejoin the professional world!" First off, I think being a mom is the most important job in the world and I am happy to be home with my boys. I was so worried about staying home in the past and things are really tight moneywise. I mean, I'm doing care gigs and trying to bring in what I can to afford the basics, but that's what I am willing to do. It won't be forever, but that's my choice. She and I are just so different in that respect. I was shipped off to daycare at 6 weeks because she thoguht it was boring to stay home with me. Because my parents both worked, they don't seem to value people who stay home with children and don't think that it's really work I guess. Sometimes I feel like we're so disconnected because she did work and there was little bonding time. It makes me wonder and so for me, that's HUGE. I don't want my kids to feel like that. I know they'll hate me when they're teenagers, but maybe not? It doesn't have to be that way. My mom always treats me like a little kid and doesn't realize that I'm an adult. While I appreciate her concern because I know she worries (I get that as a parent), I really can do without the after the fact advice and negativity. Sorry to go there, but it's been bothering me. Can you tell?