I do the same. Random things trigger all kinds of memories. I also thought I would have my children before I was 30. I thought I'd have my two little ones and be done. In a way I met my goal but not anything like I imagined I would. I imagine I will feel many of the same emotions on my birthday.
Keeping you in my thoughts,
Lauren
It really is weird what things will push our buttons, make us anxious, sad, or even, sometimes, happy.
I sorry that 30 is so hard for you. I know that nothing we say will make it easier, just know that we're here, thinking of you, wishing you peace and hoping that tomorrow is a better day.
Tommie