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HEY, IT'S SOMETHING

We had lots of wind, but no rain for the garage sale! Nice weather! Unfortunately, not too many people showed up, but we were able to raise a little over $100 and for just 3 hours (7-10 a.m.), that's not too bad. It's all going to such a good cause. I'm going to be committed to this organization for life and I hope that my boys will incorporate it into their lives as they get older. Our personal webpage is www.marchforbabies.org/Vazquez5. Well, the month of March is almost over. I think it's odd that my little one dies in March and coiinciding with "March of Dimes." It almost feels as if it was fate, but I'm still so angry at my OB for not caring enough about me. Still a bit angry at myself for feeling as though I didn't do enough. I'm really getting serious about losing these extra pounds. I know that I can't and shouldn't move forward with any potential baby plans until that happens. Sometimes I think with significant and safe weightloss, a tube reversal, and an excellent OB can make all the difference. The risks are just so high now, but I am still holding out some hope that we might be able to try again. Maybe I'm just so naive that I can't accept reality? It still just hurts too much to know that we were truly so close to completing our family and having our dreams come true.

  • Awesome on making that 100 dollars, not too bad for 3 hours!  Great that you're taking your health into your own hands, that's wonderful!  It sounds like you are being so proactive in making your next pregnancy as healthy and safe as you can!  I hope that one day soon you will feel that your family is complete, although I know you will forever be missing your Naethyn.  Sending you many hugs!

    Stacy

  • Thanks Stacy!  I'm so trying to do what I can because I honestly don't know what else to do.  I decided to take a LOA this year and because I made that decision, I no longer have a job in my district for next year.  My state did away with tenure, so my 7 years in mean nothing.  In the event that I can lose a significant amount of weight this year, I am tempting to opt for a tube reversal and try our luck one more time.  For the money, it might be better to go the IVF route, but there are some risks involved for me with the meds and so surgery seems better.  The fact is, I can't carry a baby to term, so it might be foolish to try again.  I know that if I were to have a better OB, I think I'd have a better chance.  A chance is all I really wanted and I feel robbed of that.  So, one day at a time, but still feeling very empty and a bit lost about our next step/phase of our lives . . .