Well, we survived the holidays. Santa was very good to our boys. The lengths we go to as parents in order for wish lists to come true. I am dreading opening February's credit card statement. There might be a scream heard round the world! Just don't ask me how old my underwear is, okay? I said that I was going to try and give myself more ME time this year? I'd better make sure that I have the basics squared away first. New underwear is on my list for sure and dare I say matching bras, even better! So December happened and was about to leave without Aunt Flo stopping in for a visit. For me, this isn't normal and it's been the one thing I can actually plan for who shows up on time. In the back of my mind, I'm always thinking tubal pregnancy even though I know the chances are slim. I had a feeling she'd be late and went ahead and cancelled my annual with my doctor. Thought I was being a good girl by scheduling a wellness appt right at the end of the month, but I cancelled it two days before and sure enough, I was right. I was very late and I can only assume that it was from all of the holiday stress. I'll be rescheduling that appt soon. I have to anyway for BP check. It would be so nice to drop a pill, the more expensive of the two would be even better.
It was a nice Winter Break for us just spending time together, catching up on movies and shows, figuring out how to work all that Santa brought too. For one week, there were no therapies and it was bliss! It was the first year that we didn't go to a portrait studio for pictures. We just didn't do it this year. I never even bothered to check out the time slots online for our favorite place. Maybe we'll go in early February and do some love day pictures or something. I'm glad the holidays are over for now. December is hard. December is when we found out that our baby-to-be was a boy and that Naethyn was on his way. It was the only sort of Christmas we'd ever have as a whole family that year with him safe inside. Yeah, but as the holidays end, my timeline starts again, the timeline of fetal demise. I shake my head as I'm sad to even know these words.
As I prepare to face a milestone year, the 5th angelversary, I am leaning on MOD and Share friends once again to help carry me through and lift me past my painful month of March. I hope to meet my fundraising goal this year and I'm attending the kick-off breakfast at the end of this month. Sending love to all of my Share friends who are embracing a new year, but facing another year with little ones in their hearts.
Lindsay,
You go girl with your new underwear! I had the same situation with bras recently and decided to finally splurge on a good, expensive one, and it was so worth it! Anway - back to you - glad to hear that you and your family had a great Christmas. I bet it definitely did feel good to have a week off from everything, including therapies.
You will be in my heart over the next few months as you relive your journey and make your way to Naethyn's 5th angelversary. Best of luck with all of your MOD fundraising....I hope the kick-off breakfast goes well!
Lots of Love,
Libby
A girl has to have good undies!
I am glad that the boys had a good Christmas. I know that we tend to spoil our children a little more now that we know what its like to be constantly missing our daughter especially at Christmas. November marked 5 years for us and I can tell you that 5 years was a little more difficult than the last few. Maybe its because our daughter should be moving from being a toddler to being a big girl and she isn't. Maybe it's because it's hard to believe that much time has passed since I last saw her, held her, smelled her. I am glad that you are leaning on your Share family, we are always here.
Sending lots of hugs your way and hopes that you will get those new undies and maybe some bras too. lol
hugs,
Jami
I love that you're starting the New Year with new undies! That makes a big difference :)
I'm glad that you all had a nice break, and whoo hoo for a break from therapies! Santa does seem to spoil these kiddos, and somehow we get left with the bill? Not sure what that is about.
We are all here for you as you relive your timeline. I am so sorry that Naethyn's 5th angelversary is approaching. That is such a long time to be without your baby. Lean on us as much as you need to.
Good luck with the fundraising!
Huge hugs,
Leigh
Holy moly!!! I had to click on your blog first just to see what the underwear situation was all about. You're too funny!!! If you figure out why women's underwear is so darn expensive---let me know!!
Glad that Christmas was good for ya'll this year, but I agree that I'm glad it's over. The hoopla takes it's toll. For whatever reason, I feel that the holidays exaggerate how much I miss my daughter. Not sure why those days are harder because I certainly miss her every day......
Hugs to you!
Tracy
Glad you all had a good Christmas and that you treated yourself to new undies! Sending you a million hugs as you start out at year 5. It never gets easier but your never alone!
Samantha
I had to chuckle about the bras and underwear. We moms go without so our kids can have things. I know what you mean about holiday spending. I try to keep it in check, but there's always something else that catches my eye for the girls.
Thinking of you and sending hugs and love as you wind into this fifth year.
erin