I've been working on my daughters' photo book as well. Sometimes it is heartbreaking, other times very terapeutic and I can look at their tiny little faces and smile. I've just got to go in and edit it and then I'm done. But I'm not freaking out yet. I have a really nice photo album my brother got for me so I still have more of their things to work on. Who knows, maybe it'll take me another full year before I "finish" that one. But I'm going to keep on taking pictures, of things that remind me of my girls, of special things we do for them so their story will continue forever.
I felt that way about the memory books I made for my sons. It was hard when they were finished because I knew there would be no more pictures, no more stories, no more memories. I had bought so many scrapbooks and pages and embellishment for little boys during the five months I was pregnant. I cropped ALL my other pictures so I'd have plenty of time for baby books. And I ended up with only 21 weeks and 5 days of memories. So hard!
You are a wonderful mom. Your focus on taking care of them is remarkable. I, too, wonder what it will be like for you children when they learn about their angel brother. I think about that, too.
Thank you Stacy and Shannon. Shannon, I remember reading in one of your entries you stating that you had finished your boys' albums. I was hoping to find the courage to start then, but I guess I wasn't ready. It's funny when you know it's time. I'm definitely taking my time going through the stages of grief which I think is a good thing. Emotional breakdown on the kitchen floor pending in the next 20 years . . . I hope not.
I haven't even started either of my girls' albums and it's been almost 7 years now. I just can't figure out how to best take care of that.....One day.
I think it's great that you've been able to scrap a little more for Naethyn. I can't imagine how hard it is working on his album. I think you're so brave and strong. I know that some day, when your boys are all grown up and see Naethyn's book they'll too marvel at your strength during this time. Thanks for being an inspiration to so many :)
*sending smiles your way*
Hey Linds~ do you have facebook? It'd be way easier to leave you messages! I think that Chapel Hill is about 3 hours from where I live in NC. I'm closer to the Outer Banks and Nags Head area. I've heard there is a really good medical facility there though.
As for MY weightloss issues. I've struggled with my weight my whole life.. and I've tried everything. I have no will power to exercise so I basically never lost much weight. I heard about taking HCG injections on the radio. It's expensive (like $1,000 once you add in the lab tests and Dr. fees). I think it was well worth it though. If I added up all the money that I've put into diets in the past it would more than equal out. I had mine on a payment plan so I only needed $350 down so that was better. I wrote about it in my blog, but when I started on February 8th, I weighed 173lbs, today I weigh 140.5... that's a big difference. I started out wearing size 12/14 and am now in an 8 :) I'd recommend it if you have the $$... it's the best thing I've ever did for myself- and you don't have to excersize!! I don't work for them or anything like that, but I'd love to give you more info if you'd like :)
If you have facebook, you can find me under
Julie Schaffner or Julie Mitchell... it says I live in VA beach though I think. Hope to hear from you soon! :)
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