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THREE YEARS WITHOUT YOU (3.6.09)

The weather this past weekend was beautiful - the same kind of weather when our son was delivered. I remember feeling what would become his final kick (abruption) and then delivered Naethyn 3 days later. I usually get angry remembering the words from my neglectful OB, but this year, I didn't let them in. I stayed focused on my baby. I will never forget those hours and moments leading up to that fateful day. I will never forget waking up from surgery and instantly asking for him. I will never forget the utter joy and saddness I felt holding him in my arm as best I could (the other arm was still connected to some darn tube). NEVER. It's all permanently fixed in my brain like a math equation or verb conjugation. We had a MOD fundraiser this past weekend. It wasn't successful, but it really didn't matter to me. It was special for us. It was the cake I would've purchased for him and the balloons I'd have filled with air. Yes, lots of sheet cake left over and every time I eat a slice, I'm thinking a li'l something special for our angel. I often wonder what it ALL would've been like raising three little boys. Those moments are hard. It hurts because I know it would have been . . . WONDERFUL:) It's been three years without YOU. You know that we think of you each and every day/hour. You've seen our tears. We're trying to stay strong, trying to make you proud of us, trying . . . We LOVE you Naethyn, Your mommy, daddy, and big brothers

  • Hugs, Lindsay.

    D

  • We're thinking of you Lindsay.

  • Thinking of you and sweet Naethyn... sweet birthday wishes to him.  I have no doubt, absolutely no doubt of his pride for his awesome momma, brothers and family.

    Hugs,

    Lauren

  • Lindsay

    A MOD fundraiser sounds like the perfect way to celebrate Naethyn's birthday.  Helping to raise awareness and money to help other babies and families...what a beautiful way to honor your angel.  I am sure he feels all of the love you are sending him.  

    Thinking of you,

    Marissa

  • Lindsay,

    Thinking of you today and over the next 3 days.  I know how painful it is.  Sending hugs to you as you remember your sweet Naethyn.

    Much love,

    Libby

  • Lindsay

    hugs and 3

    Liz

  • I'm glad that you were able to focus on your sweet Naethyn this year.  Those memories are often so tangled up with the things that went wrong it's so hard to do that.  Many many hugs to you and sweet birthday wishes to Naethyn.

    Stacy

  • Hugs dear Lindsay, what a perfect way to honor and show the love for Naethyn that raising money to help others..... Glad you are forgetting the bad/anger side and concentrating on the love of your little one..... Yes sometimes I tried to imagine how life would be with 3. Loved the pictures, seems like the boys had a great time playing.....

    Lorena

  • Awww Lindsay- big hugs to you!  i can't believe 3 years, big sigh.... to know our 3 year mark is right around the corner is surreal!  it doesn't seem possible.

    thinking of you!

    jennifer

    ps- thanks for the email!!! i should have time tomorrow to respond :)