Yesterday was Marco's 5th birthday/anniversary. FIVE years ago, I held that little baby on my chest as he took his last breaths. It seems like a just yesterday and a lifetime ago all at the same time. Strange how that is, isn't it?
Both Bruno's and my families are local, which is wonderful, however it leads to very little time with just our nuclear family. So, this weekend we took a family "staycation". We did a few little outings around here just the 3 of us, and it was so nice. We really needed that time together.
I took off work yesterday for Marco's birthday, and I kept Lucia with me. We had a nice leisurely morning and then went to see some waterfalls in the area. Once Bruno was home from work, we released a balloon for Marco on the soccer field behind our house. The balloon actually got stuck in some trees, which was kind of funny, but then it did cut itself loose and kept on moving. We had a nice dinner, then baked Halloween cookies together.
What they say about the time leading up to an anniversary often being harder than the actual anniversary itself really held true for me this year. The last 2 weeks were rocky for me. That's partly related to the fact that I was also waiting to find out if I was pregnant from my 2nd round of Clomid. I found out Friday that I am not. As big of a let-down as it was, I do feel like finding out on Friday allowed for me to go into the weekend more clear-headed. I didn't have the hope/fear dance going round and round in my head anymore. It really was a nice, peaceful weekend and day yesterday, and I'm so thankful for that. The weather was beautiful here - cool and sunny - a nice change from the overcast, muggy weather we had last week.
Marco, it's hard to believe that you were actually here, in our arms, for a fleeting moment in time. Though I don't remember every minute of our time together, I will never forget the love that we shared with you on that day. That love continues to live in us, as you do too. We love you and miss you, our son.
Here's a photo of us right before our balloon release, and one of Lucia checking out Great Falls:
Happy Birthday Marco! Many hugs to you Libby, I always find the days leading up to always be harder than the actual day. I'm glad your family was able to have some "me" time. I love that! I think our family needs a "staycation" . Im sorry that your 2nd round of Clomid was not successful. Praying that you have some positive news very soon. I Love watching your little girl grow in your pictures. Many many hugs to you and yours!
Samantha
Hugs to you! And birthday wishes to your sweet angel Marco.
I can see the love that Lucia feels from you, Bruno and Marco in her bright eyes and great big smile. She is so very happy.
Sending prayers and positive thoughts your way for a successful clomid round very soon.
Love and Hugs,
~Karri
Happy Birthday to Marco! Wow, 5 years... hugs to you Libby! I love the way you spent the day together just you guys:) Your little Lucia is adorable:)
Sending you love and positives,
Lindsay
Oh Libby...five years. Wow. I totally get what you mean about it feeling like a lifetime and like yesterday all at once.
I'm so glad that the three of you were able to spend time together, just loving each other and Marco.
I am so sorry that the Clomid didn't work this time around. Talk about adding insult to injury.
I hope things turn around for you in that area of your life and you get all the things you dream of.
Thinking of you,
Tommie
Hugs to you as you treasure those sweet memories!!! Love it that you got away to be together and celebrate the moments.
Thinking of you!
Tracy