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Somewhere Over the Rainbow

ELEVATOR RIDE

My husband Bruno gave me some insight today on the phone. He told me that he had gone down to the basement level of his work building to get breakfast at the deli. When he got into the elevator to come up, he was thinking about how life is like an elevator ride. He wanted to get to the 11th floor, but he knew that he wouldn’t get to go straight to that floor without stopping. He didn’t know where it would stop though. Just like life – you have a goal of where you want to go – but sometimes there are curveballs – stops you didn’t think you’d have to make or don’t want to make. The elevator he was on as he was thinking about this did stop at a couple of floors and then it actually malfunctioned! They had to get off and then get on another elevator. How ironic! Anyway, just thought I’d share that today. On another note – I finally, after 55 long days, got my period. I’m tricking myself into thinking that this is a good thing. It’s good that my body is now doing what it needs to. I'm having a harder time with it than I thought I would though. It’s been a hard few days. I was just really hoping that I was pregnant. This whole thing is just hard – that’s all there is to it. I feel like trying to conceive just adds another dimension to the grief of the loss of Marco. Hopefully some day soon I’ll get to dance off the elevator at the floor that I wanted to go to! Goodnight Marco – I love you.

  • Your husband is so insightful!  What a unique way to look at things... and so true and ironic that he elevator malfunctioned!!

    I'm sorry that AF decided to show, you are right though, perhaps it does signal things getting back on track ready for another lil' one...

    Thinking of you,

    Lauren

  • I smiled at your last few lines.  I love that you wrote that line of hope and dancing at the end.  Even if you dont fully believe it right now, you still wrote it.  I like that.  And then a sweet goodnight to your Marco.  It just all had a sweet hopefullness peeking through the saddness and frustration of all of this.  Thanks for posting :)

    Abra

  • What a great analogy. Thank for sharing.

    Katie

  • So true, such a perfect analogy.  I wish for us all to be getting of at the right floor quickly with no unwanted stopoffs!  So sorry AF decided to show herself, it's so hard seeing that confirmation month after month of what you have lost.  Thinking of you.

    Stacy

  • I'd never thought of it that way, but he's right.....  I'll never ride another elevator again without thinking of that and the stops that my life has made along the way that were so unexpected.

    Tracy