MARCH OF DIMES | MARCH FOR BABIES | NACERSANO

Somewhere Over the Rainbow

I'M ON MY WAY

Today I am finally tackling putting away winter clothes and taking out summer clothes. I've been dreading this. Last year I was pregnant during the summer and mostly wearing maternity clothes. I don't fit into most of my pants/shorts from 2 summers ago. I don't feel great in my shirts either. I just feel heavy still from the baby weight. Technically I only have about 5 more pounds to lose to get to my pre-pregnancy weight - but my body is still different. It just feels heavier. Ugh!! Anyway - as I was digging in the back of my closet, I came across a sonogram picture of Marco that we had framed. The frame was given to us as a gift when I found out I was pregnant. The matting on the frame has a little window below the picture to put a saying. We chose "I'm on my way". All the doctors had been doubting Marco, telling us about all the anomalies he had. When we looked at that picture though, we just saw our beautiful little baby. So, I wasn't really prepared to run into that picture today. It's kind of ironic that I did though, because it was exactly one year ago today - April 10th - that I found out I was pregnant with him. One year ago that I found out that he was "on his way". I sit here in the office as I type this, with his picture right next to me. This was supposed to be Marco's room. It's still just an office. There are some little baby hats that my sister in law gave me when I found out I was pregnant that are hanging on the closet door in here. I hung them there when she gave them to me and never took them off. I like having them there to see. They keep me hopeful that some day there will be a little baby's head filling those hats. I've posted the sono picture as well as a picture I took this morning of the tree in front of our house in full bloom. Marco, I loved you from the moment I found out you were on your way. Thank you for leading me to that beautiful picture of you today.

  • I'm so sorry you're having to do all of this.  I'm sure it is hard switching back to clothes from the season you were pregnant.  It's the same here year round so I never had to make that transition myself.  What a beautiful picture of your little guy, thank you for sharing it!  Oh, I love the flowering tree too, it's absoloutely beautiful!!  Thinking of you.

    Stacy

  • Your post brought me to tears.  I love how our little ones find us at the most important and meaningful times.  I love that sonogram picture!!

    That is the most beautiful tree too!  What kind is it?  I just love it.

    Lauren

  • I'm so glad that finding Marco's picture was a blessing rather than being upsetting. I hadn't thought about the anniversary of finding out that you were expecting. It must be a challenging day for you.

    Thank you for sharing Marco's u/s picture. It's a beautiful image. The tree is lovely, too. Flowers help the mood.

    Shannon

  • Marco is gorgeous.  

    Deep breath.

    One day at a time.

    Hope for the future.

    -Zsuzsi

  • I'm so happy that Marco gave you that gift on a day when he thought you might need it!  What a beautiful picture.  The tree is gorgeous too!  Thank you for sharing.  Take care of yourself!

    Megan.

  • What a sweet pic!!  You're right....no matter what the drs. say, it's still your precious little boy!  I cherish the sono pics of my daughter as well.  

    Thanks for sharing your thoughts today.

    Tracy

  • such a sweet pic of your beautiful  marco...i so love to hear about all the special signs parents recieve from their angels...he was letting you know he is always there with you and he always will be...i know each time im finding it hard to cope or it is one of my angels special dates there is always a sign...usually a sweet ladybird....love the beautiful tree too...thankyou for sharing ..hugs xx

  • What a great photo of Marco, in-utero, and a beautiful tree.  I like how you posted both of them.  My little nephew, how I would love to hold your sweet little hand and make you smile, tickle you under your chin, feed you a bottle!!  Thank you for posting your private thoughts, feelings and the pictures.  I love you.

  • That's such a sweet surprise on such a memorable day.  It's strange how those things pop up on very specifc days.  It's a good sign I think.  It's interesting that you mention ultrasound pics.  I was doing a few more pages in Naethyn's album and all the ultrasound pic just fell out.  I haven't worked on his album in months and then they were all over the place.  It's kind of weird to see pics of your own son inside you knowing that at one point, he was alive.  It makes it real all over again, but I need to be reminded of that.  This all really happened.  I guess that's the part about time that I don't like.  The more time passes, the less real it kind of seems for me.  I hope to finish his baby album soon so that I can look at everything whenever I need to.

    It's seems gorgeous where you are.  Things are in bloom here as well, but it's going to get really hot soon and I'm not a fan of the AZ heat.

    Hugs,

    Lindsay