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I can't believe it's been so long since I've updated! Things have been busy with me with transitioning to work at home. I'm home now though, and in the process of getting my office situated. Lucia still goes to daycare, but I get about an extra hour with her now. I'm much less stressed due to not having to commute to/from work...plus I can get more done around the house on my lunch breaks :) Lucia is amazing (I am biased, I know). She is such a happy, easy going baby. She is getting more active and playful. We just had to lower her crib mattress...it made me kind of sad. Oh - and she is a thumb sucker - it is the cutest darn thing! Tonight Bruno asked me if I noticed that Lucia tends to fall asleep right when Iz's Somewhere Over the Rainbow starts playing on her little lullaby CD that we play for her. I think it is track 7, and that's typically when she falls asleep. That is a special song to us, because it's one that we associate with Marco. The priest who did his memorial service played it on his guitar and sang it during the mass. I told Bruno that I did notice that she goes off to dreamland around when that song comes on, and we both thought it was kind of neat. So then he said "speaking of Marco"...and then handed me a mailing that just came today. It's from a local cemetary. I had called them last year to inquire about burying Marco's ashes there. We want to bury him, but just haven't gotten around to it yet - plus it's really expensive...just to bury a small urn. We keep saying we're just going to do it, but more time goes by, and we don't do it. I think it may be time though. He has been sitting on our dresser for the last 2 1/2 years. I love having him there, and I feel anxious thinking of him not being there. I like the idea of him having a resting place though, and also having a place to go visit him. I also believe that he is all around us, in the moon and the stars, the flowers, the snow...everything beautiful...he's there. Even though his ashes won't be sitting on our dresser anymore, that doesn't mean that he won't be with us. It will be 3 years on 4/10 that I found out I was pregnant with him. I truly can't believe so much time has passed. Attached are a couple of pictures. The first of Lucia (thumb in mouth!), and the second is of a beautiful card that a woman in the subsequent pregnancy after a loss group that I was in gave me. We had a get together recently with all of our rainbow babies, and she gave us each one. Just wanted to share it. I think of you all often, and hope you are all doing well. Marco, sweet baby. I love you with all my heart. I know you are with us all the time, surrounding us with your love. I hope you feel the love we have for you as well.