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Somewhere Over the Rainbow

MARCH

I just realized that the month of March in DC is very similar to how I feel right now. There have been many beautiful days recently - sunny, warm temperatures. There have also been many cold, rainy days. My mood has certainly been elevated, especially on the sunny days. It does though bring a sort of melancholy on, as I ponder what I would have been doing to enjoy the beautiful weather with Marco. That melancholy is when the wind and rain pick up inside me. The flowers are blooming though, and so are some of the trees. I think that blooming represents a blooming in my hope. I'm feeling more hopeful about conceiving again. The fear is still there, but I do feel somewhat more calm about it. My husband put it well a couple of weeks ago...I was upset about having just got my period (because inside I was so hoping I was pregnant). He said "your body is smarter than you are". He is right. My body will know when it's ready to be pregnant again. I guess :chagrin: Well body - I'm ready when you are!!! Hopefully April or May when all the flowers and trees are in full bloom :) Here is a picture of me pregnant last year - I think I was around 20 weeks at this time. It was right before we learned about all of the problems with little Marco. I love you Marco - always and forever!

  • Wow, yep, I guess our bodies are smarter than we are.  Now if we can just convince them we know better than them and get pregnant right away :).  Beautiful picture, thanks for sharing!!  I've got a song on my ipod's Emilyn and Hailey mix, I know there's a quote in one of the country songs about "sunny days seem to hurt the most,"  I agree, I always wonder what I would have been doing on these nice days with my two little girls.

    Stacy

  • Smarter or not....it doesn't make you stop wanting!!

    I love the pic that you posted.  You're beautiful and I know that brings sweet memories to your mind about that precious little boy.  I hope that you're able to think of those memories while enjoying the warmer temps. and know that he's looking down on you and enjoying your smile.

    Tracy

  • Libby-

    You're beautiful.  Thanks for posting your picture of HOPE!  I am so right there with you.  I want a happy and healthy pregnancy.  I want a baby to hold and love in my arms.  I am still in the 2 weeks waiting period -- ugh this is so tough!  I HOPE we are preggers, but I am feeling very PMS-ie.  

    Will let you know.

    If not this month, I definitely agree that with being pregnant there is a certain amount of letting go that needs to happen.  We can't be living in fear the entire time -- it's not fair for us or the baby.  So...your wise husband is right, our bodies will know when it's the right time.

    Thinking of you-

    Zsuzsi

  • Libby,

    You look beautiful, with the preganancy glow.  I hope soon you get your wish of being pregnant again.  Your husband is right, your body will know when its ready.  Like i said in a recent blog, I wish i had a crystal ball that would tell me the future to ease the anxiety we feel and to know the answers to all of our questions. I don't have a Crystal ball but like you; I have an angel that is looking over me.  Our angels are always protecting us :)

    sending you lots of baby dust your way

    Hugs

    Trish

  • ~When the rain of compassion falls, even the desert becomes a vast fertile plain~

    Lib...

    Keep strong to your faith ~ that day will come!  It was sad to see your picture but I know there will be another one with you holding your belly with a big smile again.  Keep yourself healthy and strong - and your body will let you know when it is time.  Maybe Marco's helping decide as well?  I'm sure he wants to see his Mommy and Daddy happy.  Sending you lots of love, hugs and tons of HOPE!  xoxo Uncle ~B~

  • What a beautiful Prego picture!  Makes me miss it!!  Such an amazing gift to carry a child.  You will carry another and feel this glow again!!!  Thanks for sharing!

    Amelia