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MARCO'S 1 YEAR BIRTHDAY/ANGELVERSARY

Well, Marco’s 1 year birthday/angelversary was on Wednesday. It seems to have given me a case of writer’s-block. I guess I’ll just start with what we did: Bruno and I both took off work. We woke up and went to mass. We ran a few random errands. We played a board game that Bruno bought for us to play when I was in the hospital on bedrest last year. Then we went to one of the Smithsonian Air & Space museums here in Northern VA near the airport. After that, we headed home for a nap. Then I made lasagna and brownies. We had a lovely dinner. My sisters had bought a candle for Marco after we lost him that we burned during dinner. It may sound silly, but I felt like it made him more present with us there at the dinner table. Then we talked about Marco and that day last year. We looked through his memory boxes (he has 3 – I guess he had a lot of stuff for his short time here!). We cried and we laughed. Then we ended the night with one more round of our board game (I know – we sound like geeks with our board game, but it’s really fun). I didn’t want to blow the candle out at the end of the night. I felt almost like I was letting him go again. The best part of the day was just being with Bruno and then our dinner and talking about Marco. This week has just been exhausting. I wanted to post on his birthday, but just never got around to it. It seems as though we’ve been pretty busy too. Maybe that’s for the better right now. On another note, I have to say that Share Union was really great. It was wonderful to meet so many of you who have showed me so much love and support over the last year. It felt good to be able to talk about Marco so much in one weekend. It was kind of like a 2.5 day support group! It was nice to just get away too…to get out of the everyday routine. Thank you again to all of you who helped put SU together to make it what it was :) So, now I continue to press on. I continue to love Marco, my angel baby. I continue to hold on tightly to that hope that one day I will get to deliver Marco's sibling. I’m going to try to make next year better. I feel like this past year, I spent a great deal of it just going through the motions. I want to try to live more purposefully this year. Attached is a photo from our dinner table with the candle that we burned in honor of Marco on Wednesday night next to one of his sono pictures that we had framed last year when I was hospitalized before he was born. Our little pumpkin. Marco, oh how I wish things would have turned out differently. I love you baby. You will live on always through all of us that love you!

  • Sweet Birthday Wishes to Marco!

    It doesn't sound silly at all that the candle made Marco feel closer.  Having those tangible things is important.  I'm thankful to hear that Marco's 1st Birthday was a peaceful one for you and Bruno.  I know Marco was smiling and so very proud of his mommy and daddy.

    You've been in my thoughts.

    xoxox,

    Lauren

    And from one board game playing couple to another... that also doesn't sound silly! :)

  • I am glad you found a way to acknowledge Marco's day. What you did sounds just perfect to me. What a sweet sonograph picture! Thanks for sharing it with us.

    Hugs,

    Kristina

  • I am so happy you found a way to honor your sweet baby boy's day.  Thank you so much for sharing it with all of us. Happy Birthday sweet Marco.

    Take good care,

    Yolonda

  • Happy Birthday Marco!!

    I'm glad that you were able to do something that you needed to to honor Marco on his special day.  It's not what you do, but that it means something to you.  

    Hugs to you!

    Tracy

  • Sweet birthday wishes, Marco.

    It was nice to have met you at SU. I only wish we had more time prior to our marta ride to talk.

    I have spent the evening reading about Marco and your story. I'm heartbroken for all you and Bruno have been through.

    I pray for peace in your heart.

  • Libby-

    That sounds like a perfect day to honor your little Marco; the candle is beautiful!

    I'm glad you were able to make it through the day, and you had SU come a such a perfect time.

    I'm sending happy, positive baby thoughts your way for a little brother/sister for Marco!

    take care-

    jennifer

  • The little frame of Marco is so cute!  I guess I never thought to frame an ultrasound picture.  Really, thank you for giving me that suggestion in a way.  A dinner at home with you and Bruno sounds like a nice way to honor your kiddo.  The candle is really sweet.  It was a pleasure meeting you at SU.  Thank you for the conversation and for listening.  I hope to see you at the next one and I'll be blowing some baby dust your way.

    Hugs,

    Lindsay

  • What a lovely day. I'm glad you got to spend it together as a family. All my love to you and Bruno. I wish you could come over and play games with me and John.

    Shannon

  • Hey Libby, I found your blog. I was searching for you on facebook but couldn't find you.

  • oops, btw it's Krystie, search for me :-)

  • Happy belated birthday to your special little guy.  Sorry it's taken me so long to respond, I've been a little out of the loop in the blogging world.  Tons and tons of hugs are coming your way!  What a beautiful picture of your special little guy!

    Stacy

  • I think your day was perfect...spending time together and honoring Marco.

    Glad we got a chance to meet and chat at SU...

    Hugs

    Cathy

  • Happy Birthday little Marco.  I love you buddy and I miss you terribly, my heart aches for your mom and dad too.  You are living on in our hearts and minds, every day we think of you.  

    Libby, it was good that you and Bruno spent the day together, you lived it purposefully....

    I love you,

    Lisa