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Somewhere Over the Rainbow

MOMENTS OF PEACE

I've written about 3 blog posts in my head since my last one here in mid-April. Time has been slipping away from me though, and I haven't seemed to be able to dedicate enough time to actually sit down, write and post them. So, since I'm a little back-logged, this post may be a little all over the place. The growth and anatomy are right on target. The baby was weighing in at 1 lb 13 oz, which put him/her in the 69th percentile for weight. It was great to hear this, since one of the problems w/ Marco was that he had IUGR and was just so small. Marco was only 1 lb 10 oz when he was born at 29 ½ weeks. It was bittersweet to see that Little Foot had surpassed his/her big brother already at 24 ½ weeks. I have to admit that it was weird to have a normal/uneventful sonogram appointment. My last one was as well, but it was my first big one of the pregnancy, so we were on pins and needles and a little nervous. In the meantime, I've been hanging in there...sometimes by a thread. I worry about everything. It's a little exhausting really, but it's so hard to stop. There have been some days in the last few weeks where I've tried though to truly surrender to moments of peace. For my sake and the baby's. When I can find those moments, I do my best to hold onto them tightly. We've finally started getting some stuff ready in our house to prepare for the baby. It's exciting and scary all at the same time. It just makes this baby feel more real. It's putting more out there...it's more risky. Registering, buying things, clearing out the room to start decorating it. We're only at the very early stage still...the nursery is still our office, but I imagine as we get further into it my feelings will continue to fluctuate. I will be thinking of all of you, my wonderful SHARE friends tomorrow on Mother's Day. Wherever you are on your journey with motherhood, may you find some peace tomorrow. Know that my heart is with yours. I promise I will post a sono pic of LF one of these days soon. :) Marco, I love you my sweet son. You will be with me in my heart in a very special way tomorrow. I will forever be grateful to be able to say that I am your mother.

  • It's great to have an update. I'm so glad things are looking good and LF is measuring well. I imagine your next milestone will be 29 weeks. Hang in there, Libby! I think of you often and wish you more of those peaceful moments.

    Love,

    Shannon

  • Libby-

    Congratulations on 24 weeks!  Seriously, I was just thinking about you a few hours ago wondering how you were and looking forward to one of your updates!  I am glad to hear that all is well with LF and I hope that you are getting plenty of rest and taking it easy.  

    Big HUGS,

    Lindsay

  • Yay for Little Foot!!  I'm so happy to hear that all is well with this little one.  I'm sure that trying to be excited while remembering sweet Marco is a tedious balance.

    Hugs to you on Mother's Day as you celebrate remembering both of your children!!

    Tracy

  • congrats on a great ultrasound....those are always a blessing as well as any moments of peace during a pregnancy after a loss.  The nursery is def a tough one to tackle and its good you started on it. In my case it took right up until the end before it was complete...seemed like i could only handle it in small amounts

    Happy mothers day to you as well, i know Marco will be smiling at you today and greatful that you are his mommy

  • Hey Honey, Happy mother's day to you!  I'm so happy to hear all this.  Try to get into zen mode and not worry so much.  I'm sure you are going have a wonderful birth.  I love you and am thinking of you.  Uncle ~B~

  • Yeah for 24 weeks. :) I am so glad you are finding those moments of peace. Being pregnant again brings about so many emotions. I hope that as you continue through your pregnancy that you find the joy and hope of this little one.

    I hope you had a wonderful Mother's Day, celebrating lil Marco who first made you  a momma and the hope of LF.

    Love and hugs,

    Kami

  • So glad LF is doing well and thriving.  Grab those moments of peace when they come.

    Many hugs,

    Donna