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Well, it’s a good thing I have therapy tomorrow and support group this Thursday. My mind is just all over the place. I find myself feeling hopeful and patient one minute and then discouraged and impatient the next. It’s so hard to not know what’s going on inside my body with my cycle. I did go see my doctor. She thinks that my hormones are just a little out of whack (you think?!). She’s going to check my thyroid to rule that out – although I’m pretty sure that will be ok. Anyway – I’m trying really hard to be patient. I’m trying to be still, be in the moment, be happy for what I have in my life, be willing to let go of the need for control. Marco – you are teaching me so much my love. I think I’ve said this before on my blog – but trying for another baby just adds a new dimension to the grief of the loss of Marco. Bruno took a very short (maybe 25 seconds) video of Marco while he was in the NICU. I watched it yesterday. There’s a very tender moment where Bruno touches his foot and he wiggles his little toes. Oh it made me cry. Easter was hard. There were babies everywhere at church. They were very cute. Bruno and I talked about how cute Marco would have been. Maybe I would have just had him in a little yellow onesie – like a little spring chick. Last year on Easter is when we announced to my family that I was pregnant. Naively enough, I would have never in a million years expected to be where I am now at this time last year. Ugh. Sigh. Breathe. Marco – continue to teach me patience my little one – I need it!