MARCH OF DIMES | MARCH FOR BABIES | NACERSANO

Somewhere Over the Rainbow

ONE STEP AT A TIME

Being pregnant after a loss is scary. I knew it would be. The scariest thing for me is when people who we have told talk about how exciting it is that we’re going to have a baby. I’d love to think that “everything is going to be fine” this time around, and I really feel pretty positive…but there’s that little voice in the back of my mind that is preventing me from getting too excited yet. That little voice is reminding me of all that could go wrong. I try to counter that though by telling myself that so many times things actually do go right. I can’t get caught up in all that could go wrong. It won’t do me any good. So what we’re doing is just taking one step at a time and celebrating any good news that we get. The first good news to celebrate was that my beta HCG # on 12/13 was 3402. I went for a repeat on 12/15 to see if it would double (it’s supposed to double every 48 hours), and it did. It went to 7131! This was a huge deal for us because my beta # never doubled with Marco. It went up, but it didn’t double. They don’t know if that had to do with what happened with him, but we’re just really happy that it doubled this time and are taking it as a good sign. Next step is a sono on 12/27. Hopefully we’ll get to see everything that is supposed to be there at that point. I think the heartbeat will be key. I should be around 7 weeks at that time. Thank you to everyone here who has been so supportive. My heart is with all of you here on SHARE especially during the holidays which I know is a difficult time. Know that I’m wishing you all some peace. Marco love, thank you for watching over Mommy, Daddy and this new little being. Though we would give anything to have you here with us right now, we are so blessed to have you as our little angel smiling down on us.

  • Libby-I am so glad that the test results were good! I can't even pretend to imagine how scared you are with all of this. Just know that we are always here for you.

    Katie

  • Yeah for good test results! I hope your sono goes well on the 27th. Will be thinking of you and lil bean.

    Congrats again! So happy for you and your husband. Baby Marco is smiling down on his mommy and daddy.

    Hugs,'

    Kami

  • We'll celebrate with you on those doubled numbers and all the other great news!!  I'm sure this is more than scary, but as your cheering section, we'll do our best to keep your spirits up and your mind occupied with encouragement!!

    Hugs!

    Tracy

  • Libby -

    Yes, one breath at a time.  You can do this.  I am sending you good vibes every day.  I am typing this to you and listing to Eva Cassidy's "Somewhere over the Rainbow."  Little Marco is with both of you during this journey.

    Take care-

    Zsuzsi

  • Libby:

    so happy for you that things are going fine.... yes as Tracy said we, your cheerleader group, are here to help you get throu, everything will be great, keep positive.... yes I know the feeling, I was so scared to buy a thing, or even feel joy because I didn`t wanted to be dissapointed, but even tough I didn`t show it, I was thrilled with Valentina`s pregnancy...

    Big hug

    Lorena

  • Libby-

    It is scary and it is so difficult to watch other people be unbridled with their excitement when it's so difficult to feel that ourselves (partly why no one knew we were pregnant with Micah until I could no longer hide it! ;)).

    I'm thankful that these beginning milestones have brought you good and reassuring news.  We're totally here to ride this rollercoaster with you wherever it leads.

    xoxo

    Lauren

  • Congrats on the double digits with the testing.  That sono appt. will be very special for you guys.  Like others have said too, just one step at a time.  What special blessings for you two this holiday season:)  

    Happy Holidays,

    Lindsay

  • Libby,

    Congratulations to you and your hubby on the news of this new life. Sounds like Marco sent you a wonderful Christmas gift ... one I know you will cherish forever.

    Yes, being pregnant after a loss is indeed scary -- and please don't beat up yourself if you don't find yourself as excited as friends or family may be. It took me 30 weeks of being pregnant before I actually relaxed. But it's different for everyone -- so let yourself feel what you need to feel ... when you need to feel it.

    Please keep us posted ... and take it one day at time. I hope the sono goes well.

    Merry Christmas!

    erin

  • Libby,

    it was the greatest news to read your blog and fing out about the new baby. It has been a long time since i last posted.... but what a wonderful Christmas present. I am sure Marco is smiling from above and is happy to see you all happy and excited.

    I wish you the best year in your life and lots of great memories from a 40 week long healthy pregnancy. Take care of your self and know that I will be thinking of you and praying for a healthy baby...

    Hugs:

    Julia

  • Believe in the power of nature.  One breath at a time.

    Love you and am saying a lot of prayers for you, Bruno and Little Foot!!

    Lisa