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Somewhere Over the Rainbow

PLEASE WORK!!

I went to my OB yesterday. Today is day 80 of my cycle. I felt good about my appointment. I felt like she listened to me, and I feel good about the plan that we’ve come up with. She ruled out PCOS. She’s going to put me on Provera for 10 days to bring on my period. She’ll check my progesterone level on day 21 to see if I’ve ovulated. If not, it will be back on Provera. We’ll do this cycle for a few months to hopefully “reset” my cycle. I had a vision the other day of using a defibrillator on my ovaries, I couldn’t help but to laugh at myself. Additionally, I’m set up to start acupuncture on Saturday. I’m really looking forward to this as I’ve heard only good things about it from many people. So – hopefully with the minimal intervention of some low tech western medicine, and some balancing eastern medicine, my body will remember what it is supposed to do. All I can think about this is…please, please, please work!!! I’ve never felt so betrayed by my own body. When I need it most, it’s failing me. The most upsetting isn’t that I haven’t gotten pregnant yet, it’s that I don’t even have a regular cycle. Although, when I dig deep, I can’t help but to think that maybe my body has not allowed me to try to conceive in order to protect me…since maybe it knew that I needed a little more time to heal emotionally and physically from the trauma of losing Marco. Whatever it is that’s going on, I just hope it rectifies so I can feel like a “normal” woman again. Marco – please continue to give me strength. I need it!

  • I'll definately keep you in my prayers.  I'm sure you're mentally overloaded and I hope that the acupuncture works for you.  I've never tried it myself (too chicken), but I've heard great things.  Keep us posted.

    Tracy

  • Libby -

    Your cycle WILL balance.  You will find an answer.  The hardest part of this whole journey is that we really have no control.  None.  I love that you will be going to acupuncture - I am one of the many who think it is a great thing!  You are in my thoughts and prayers.  

    Love,

    Zsuzsi

  • Oh wow, when you told me earlier you had an 80 day cycle I was in shock!  Well, I guess I've had one of those now that I think about it, but so frustrating!  The provera worked for me, I hope it works for you as well!  I hope all those therapies help you out and get your ovaries back on track!  Big hugs to you!

    Stacy

  • Libby,

    I am sorry about your troubles with your ovaries.

    It is frustrating...but looks like you are on the right track and doing everything you are supposed to. I have been thinking about different methods for relaxation too. I hope the accupuncture helps. I have heard only good things about it.  Sounds like a great idea to combine both the eastern and the western medicine. I will be thinking of you...

    Hugs,

    Julia

  • Sending good thoughts your way!

    Katie

  • The image of defibrillating is pretty funny, although this is no laughing matter. I find acupuncture relaxing; I've only had it to support IVF, but it certainly can't (and doesn't) hurt.

    I hope that your body can return to normal in the next few months.

    Shannon