Life has been exceptionally busy over the last month, and I haven't been able to log into SHARE as I would have liked to. Things are finally "slowing down" just a bit, and I feel like I can take a minute to breathe. Lucia will be 2 in less than 2 weeks. Less than 2 weeks!!! She is growing and changing so fast – it’s so incredible to watch. When I look at her sometimes I can still see glimpses of my baby, but she is changing into a little girl now, and I see less and less of the baby in her as the days go on. It is very bittersweet, to say the least. As Lucia would say, "oh my gosh"!
We went to the beach for a week with my family a couple of weeks ago. The last time we were there, in that same house was 2 years ago when I was 34 weeks pregnant with Lucia. I remember being so uncertain last time we were there. The home stretch of my pregnancy with her was so hard – the closer I got – the further away it seemed I was. As I was packing for our trip this year, I was thinking back to 2 years ago. I went looking for the pictures from that trip – and I could not find them. Gone. Bruno and I looked and looked for the pictures. We could not find them. Gone. Thought we had a breakthrough the other day when we found an old laptop that we used to use. We found a lot of pictures on there, but none from my pregnancy with Lucia (except for one when I was only about 7 weeks). Gone. I told him that I cannot accept it if those pictures are truly lost – we HAVE to find them. The longer we go without finding them though, the more I have come to terms with the fact that we may not find them. Of course, my family has pictures from the period of time I was pregnant – but they’re not our pictures – not the pictures we took.
We did have a blast at the beach this year. Lucia just loved it, and it was so awesome to watch her get into it. I’ve attached a couple of pictures from this year –
Marco – It was 4 years ago at the beach when I was pregnant with you. I have wonderful memories of that time. That July I was blissfully unaware of what was to come. When I watched Lucia and your cousin Sebastian playing in the little waves together this year, I felt you smiling. We love you.
Your little one is beautiful. I am so sorry for your lost and I know those words don't help. They were said to me too many times when I lost my older daughter.
Libby~
She is so adorable!!! I can't get over how much she's grown and I see what you mean with her changing so quickly! I hope that you find the pics that you're looking for.
Hugs,
Tracy
Hugs to you. What a beautiful happy sweet girl you have! I know her brother is smiling down on her as she grows. I feel like I have watched this little one grow up even though I am many many miles away! Give her a hug from Florida!
Samantha
Such a beautiful sweet little girl little Lucia is. I know how hard it is to have your little one grow up so quickly. It is bittersweet. On one hand I am so thankful for the opportunity to be able to watch my sweet girl grow up but at the same time I just wish time would slow for awhile so that I could soak it up for a little bit longer. I hope that you find your missing pictures soon. (Did you post any of them to Share by chance? I know a lot of us upload a lot of pics maybe some of them are on Share?).
Jami
Libby, she's such a cutie! It happens too fast Libby. I wish it would slow down too. The beach is our special place as well:)
I hope that the pics will turn up. I will definitely be thinking of your little Lucia in the next few weeks. Our kiddos share a very special day indeed:)
Big hugs,
Lindsay
Libby - I so hope you find those pictures! How heartbreaking.
Lucia is such a precious, beautiful little girl. Where does the time go? Seriously....
Hugs!
Donna