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10 months

Once again I find my way back to share! Its been 10 months today since our beautiful angel Trinity went to heaven. GOD I MISS HER! How on earth have I managed to get by these last 10 month without her... How on earth am I suppost to live the rest of my life without her. I just want to hold her one more time. I want to go back 10 months and change everything that happened! Everyone around me goes on like nothings happened and deep down in my heart I know that I am going on with a part of me still left on August 18th 2006. A part of me that I can never get back, an part of me that just break my heart. I want to be able to remember my daughter without crying but I MISS HER! Why on eath did this happen to me and my family, why on earth has this happened to all you wonderful people are SHARE! all we wanted is to have our babys, love and watch them grow. All we wanted was late night diaper changes, 3am feedings, and lots of I love you mommies and daddies! WHy on earth did this happen to all of us. I have yet to go to a baby shower, Pregnente women still bug me, and the hardest thing is seeing baby around ten months old and knowing that my angel would have been that old. My angel would have been crawling maybe even walking if she was like her brother! I JUST WANT MY ANGEL BACK!

  • Welcome back.

    The first year can be really hard, as there are many "firsts" that you will encounter.  I wish I could tell you the first time I thought of my boys and didn't cry, but I do not remember.  It will happen for you, just give yourself sometime.

    Now that I think of it, I haven't been to a baby shower yet either.

    -Shonda

  • I'm so glad you have Share to come to when you are feeling low.  Today must be very hard for you.  We're all sending you warm thoughts.

    Julie

  • Oh sweetie, we share something very much in common, an anniversary date where both our angels left us.  My Abigail's heart stopped beating on August 18th at 12:30 a.m.  A time that will NEVER be forgotten.

    I know that you are missing Trinity with all your heart and soul.  But know that she is forever a part of SHARE and she will always be remembered here.

    Thinking of you.

    Colleen

  • I am sorry you have to go through this pain.  Please continue to post, and know we are here for you.  Trinity will always be your beautiful baby girl!

    Tracy