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10 weeks [2]

Yes I have been MIA for a couple of weeks. I have had a million blog I wanted to write and had no Idea how to get them out so this blog may be all over the place, So I appologize in advance. My computer isnt working and my SIL computer is well lets just say we dont get long. First let me start off by saying I love my boys and I feel very blessed to have them in my life. Having Jaxson has been amazing and seeing Jadon interact with him melts my heart. However, having Jaxson has been a huge slap in the face of all the thing I missed out of with Trinity. The holidays have been tough. Picking out the boys christmas outfits for pictures and seeing the little girl dresses broke my heart. When we were having the pictures taken I couldnt help but think of the Should/could have beens. When we were looking at the pictures picking which ones we wanted there was one with the boys together in a heart and under it said "Jadon and Jaxson Nothing Like A Brothers Love" I teared up. Its been a difficult few weeks and it doesnt help that Trinity EDD is the 28th. ohh how I miss her! Jadon is doing amazing and he is loving the Elf on the Shelf. He was having a little bit of trouble with being bullying but I think after contacting the principal he is doing much better. Jaxson: Ohh Where do I begin. First I am loving every minute! Sometimes I cant believe hes mine, like maybe its a dream and one day Im gonna wake you and hes going to be gone, I know that may sound silly but I know all to well that tomorrow isnt promised! A few Sat ago he spiked a fever and we rushed himto the ER. His fever was 102.8 and no one knows what caused it. If he had been a few weeks younger he would have been admitted with spinal taps. We still dont know what caused it. Okay so Jaxons was on Enfamil since I lost my milk due to the meds. WIC refused to cover our Enfamil and put Jaxson on Good Start. THe last week and a half has been DIFFICULT he has cried, screamed, and acted as though he was in pain. Today I went to the store and bought all new Enfamil. I WILL NOT USE GOOD START ANYMORE! I can not sit back and here him cry as though he is in pain. He cries, I cry, neither of us are sleeping and momma is on the verge. I finally looked at DH and said I cant do this, I cant give him this formula and know its causing him pain. He had cut his feeding almost in half drinking less than 4 oz ever 4+ hours and having 4 loose BM a day. Something is not right and I have to do something. Its going to be tough with the cost (since I was laid off) but I dont care what it cost is I have to do whats best for him. He is getting so big 10lbs 15ozat his 2 month check up! I cant believe how fast the last 10 weeks have gone by! Im not sure I covered everything I wanted but its a start.

  • Sam, they are getting so big!  I need to do some loving on them from far away! :)  I didn't know you had been laid off and I'm sorry to hear that.  I would definitely do the same thing with the Enfamil.  

    Love you!

    Julie

  • I love the pics!!

    I'm sorry, I didn't know you had been laid off :(

    I'm sure it is so hard seeing the boys together and missing Trinity with them. I can't imagine.

    We had a similar issue with Easton and Similac...it was terrible! So now we are sticking with Enfamil, and he is much happier. So sorry that WIC won't cover it, could you maybe get his pediatrician to write a prescription or note about it to the WIC office?

    Leigh

  • Oh my goodness, look how he has grown!  Seeing those pictures makes SU seem eons ago!

    I know there are so many bittersweet feelings by having another "lil" with Jadon... I feel very strongly that Trinity is so proud of you and her bros.

    I love Leigh's idea of maybe having the ped write it as a script.

    Lauren

  • Love the pictures they are amazing. See if your pediatrician has an Enfamil rep that they have who comes in and gives them samples, see if they can contact them and explain the situation that your having with the WIC office not wanting to pay for his formula bacause they are trying to force you to use Good Start and it is making your baby sick. Also tell them that you were laid off and that you can not afford the Enfamil. They will more than likely arrange to send you a LOT of free formula. If that doesn't work call Enfamil and tell them. Trust me some one will send you free formula. If not message me on facebook and I will get ahold of our enfamil rep and I will see what she can do. Formula companies sent out tons of free formula to Dr's office. They arrange lunches at ours and send cases of samples and if we have a patient who is having a problem or a cost issue they will arrange to sent cases of formula to their home at no cost. I really hope that they figure something out. Formula can be so expensive and especially if WIC is being unreasonable about changing your sons formula.

    Jami

  • Aww....what sweet pics!!!

    I hear ya on the missing moments when you look at important pics.  Wish we could change it.  I don't blame you for the Enfamil.  Maybe you could get your dr. to write a note to the WIC office about him having to have something different.  Surely that's not all that they'll cover...every kid is different!  If nothing else, the dr office may have extra coupons to help with the cost.

    Hugs to you!

    Tracy